Meydan TV-nin h\u0259bsd\u0259 olan jurnalisti Ramin Dekonun (C\u0259bray\u0131lzad\u0259) 1 sayl\u0131 Bak\u0131 \u0130stintaq T\u0259cridxanas\u0131ndan yaz\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 oldu\u011fu kimi t\u0259qdim edirik.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Biz d\u00f6rd ki\u015fiydik. M., S., B., D. \u0130ndi p\u0259r\u0259n-p\u0259r\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f\u00fck. Birimiz h\u0259bsd\u0259, birimiz q\u0259bird\u0259, birimiz s\u00fcrg\u00fcnd\u0259, biri d\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcl\u00fck edir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M. 35 il ya\u015fad\u0131. H\u0259r i\u015find\u0259 totemi olurdu, d\u00fczg\u00fcn (uy\u011fun) g\u0259lm\u0259dis\u0259 yola \u00e7\u0131xmazd\u0131, qulp qoymazd\u0131. Halal-haram s\u00f6hb\u0259tind\u0259n qorxar, bir kims\u0259nin haqq\u0131na girm\u0259zdi. \u201cHam\u0131m\u0131z quluq. Qul qulun haqq\u0131na girm\u0259z\u201d – tez-tez i\u015fl\u0259tdiyi bu frazan\u0131 h\u0259yat kredosuna \u00e7evirmi\u015fdi. N\u0259 i\u00e7irdi, n\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kirdi, amma b\u00fct\u00fcn m\u0259clisl\u0259rin ba\u015f\u0131nda olurdu. \u201cSiz i\u00e7in m\u0259n xumarlanacam\u201d – deyirdi. Onun azart\u0131 i\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131\u015fan \u0259d\u0259bi, siyasi m\u00fcbahis\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 qulaq m\u00fcsafiri olmaq idi. Yax\u015f\u0131 dinl\u0259yici idi, ara-s\u0131ra m\u00fcbahis\u0259 ed\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259 qo\u015fulur, ki\u00e7ik x\u0259talara d\u00fcz\u0259li\u015f ver\u0259r\u0259k yen\u0259 k\u0259nara \u00e7\u0259kil\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Arzular\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fck idi. H\u00fcququn, qanunun ali oldu\u011fu bir m\u0259ml\u0259k\u0259td\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259llim olmaq idi. D\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 \u00f6lk\u0259ni t\u0259rk etm\u0259k f\u00fcrs\u0259ti oldu. Amma h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 \u0259linin t\u0259rs \u00fcz\u00fcyl\u0259 r\u0259dd etdi. \u201cBurada qal\u0131b \u00f6lk\u0259ni d\u00fcz\u0259ltm\u0259liyik\u201d – deyirdi. Bac\u0131s\u0131, qarda\u015f\u0131 yox idi, atas\u0131n\u0131 u\u015faqk\u0259n itirmi\u015fdi. Ya\u015fl\u0131 anas\u0131yla kiray\u0259d\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. Universiteti bitir\u0259nd\u0259n sonra f\u0259hl\u0259lik ed\u0259r\u0259k evi doland\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 ikinci i\u015f – kitab redakt\u0259 etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flayandan uzun ill\u0259r \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k zavodunda i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259n anas\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
B\u00f6y\u00fck arzular\u0131 yox idi. G\u00f6z\u0259l bir \u00f6lk\u0259nin v\u0259t\u0259nda\u015f\u0131 olub m\u00fc\u0259llim maa\u015f\u0131yla \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 m\u0259nzil almaq ist\u0259yirdi. \u0130nan\u0131r, bunun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn sava\u015f\u0131r, bir g\u00fcn x\u0259yal\u0131n\u0131n realla\u015faca\u011f\u0131na \u00fcmid edirdi. Al\u0131nmad\u0131. 34 ya\u015f\u0131 yeni tamam olmu\u015fdu anas\u0131 d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdi. 35 ya\u015f\u0131na \u00e7atmam\u0131\u015f d\u00fckandan \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k al\u0131b qay\u0131dark\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259ktutmas\u0131ndan v\u0259fat etdi. Sa\u011flam, n\u00fcmun\u0259vi h\u0259yat ya\u015fayan, sevgi dolu adam\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yi d\u00f6zm\u0259di. Vidala\u015fd\u0131 biziml\u0259. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
S. M.-in \u0259ksi idi. Arzular\u0131 yox idi, h\u0259yat e\u015fqi s\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Birc\u0259 ist\u0259yi vard\u0131: tezlikl\u0259 \u00f6lk\u0259ni t\u0259rk etm\u0259k. \u201cBura ya\u015fanas\u0131 yer deyil\u201d tez-tez i\u015fl\u0259tdiyi bu c\u00fcml\u0259ni \u00f6z\u00fc \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir k\u0259lama \u00e7evirmi\u015fdi. D\u0259li-dolu olan S. b\u00fct\u00fcn m\u0259clisl\u0259rin sonunda m\u00fcbahis\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259k bir m\u00f6vzu a\u00e7ard\u0131. Dedi-qodunu, hay-k\u00fcy\u00fc \u00e7ox sev\u0259rdi. Sanki bununla n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131rd\u0131. S. M.-d\u0259n f\u0259rqli olaraq ist\u0259yini realla\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131. Bir d\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259r ald\u0131q ki, \u00f6lk\u0259ni t\u0259rk edib. Bel\u00e7ikaya p\u0259nah apar\u0131b. Halbuki getm\u0259mi\u015fd\u0259n bir g\u00fcn \u00f6nc\u0259 yen\u0259 bir m\u0259clisd\u0259ydik, dedik, g\u00fcld\u00fck, \u0259yl\u0259ndik, sa\u011folla\u015fanda bel\u0259 biz\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259di. \u0130ki g\u00fcn x\u0259b\u0259r ala bilm\u0259dik. Itkin d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc z\u0259nn edib, polis\u0259 m\u0259lumat verdik. Az sonra dostumuzun sora\u011f\u0131 q\u0259rib eld\u0259n g\u0259ldi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Qollar\u0131n\u0131 boyunlar\u0131na atm\u0131\u015f iki xan\u0131mla \u00e7\u0259kdirdiyi \u015f\u0259kli biz\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rmi\u015fdi. \u201cPolis\u0259 etdiyiniz m\u00fcraci\u0259ti geri g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcn, m\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131yam. N\u0259 vaxt buralara g\u0259ls\u0259niz g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259rik. Amma indi dan\u0131\u015fmayaq. H\u00fcquqlar\u0131 olmayan, h\u0259r add\u0131mba\u015f\u0131 ayaqlanan bir \u00f6lk\u0259nin v\u0259t\u0259nda\u015flar\u0131yla \u00fcnsiyy\u0259t\u0259 girm\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m\u201d – bunu da \u015f\u0259klin alt\u0131nda qeyd kimi yazaraq po\u00e7tla ham\u0131m\u0131za ayr\u0131-ayr\u0131l\u0131qda yollam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
15 g\u00fcn i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259n S.-l\u0259 bir daha n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131q, n\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bildik. Xudp\u0259s\u0259nd, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259vur\u011fun olsa da, bu q\u0259d\u0259rini g\u00f6zl\u0259mirdik. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr q\u00fcrb\u0259t bizim adamlar\u0131 tez d\u0259yi\u015fdirir. S. bu ged\u0259nl\u0259r i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 n\u0259 birincidri, n\u0259 sonuncu. Uzaqlara ged\u0259nl\u0259r bizi b\u0259y\u0259nmir, yuxar\u0131dan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 bax\u0131r, h\u0259tta ir\u0259li ged\u0259r\u0259k s\u00f6y\u00fcr, yamanlay\u0131rlar. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 biz yax\u015f\u0131 tan\u0131mam\u0131\u015f\u0131q onlar\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
B. Universiteti \u0259la qiym\u0259tl\u0259rl\u0259 bitirmi\u015fdi. Yax\u015f\u0131 nitq qabiliyy\u0259ti vard\u0131, b\u0259la\u011f\u0259tli s\u0259siyl\u0259 \u015feirl\u0259r deyirdi. Yar\u0131zarafat, yar\u0131ciddi ona tamada deyirdik. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259 xo\u015f g\u0259lirdi. Arzular\u0131 bitib-t\u00fck\u0259nm\u0259z idi. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 3-5 arzusunu dinl\u0259y\u0259rdik, qurtarm\u0131rd\u0131 ki, qurtarm\u0131rd\u0131. \u201cD\u00fcnyadaki b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u0259nizl\u0259r quruyar, amma m\u0259nim arzular\u0131m bitm\u0259z\u201d – dey\u0259rdi. Ail\u0259-u\u015faq sahibi olmaq, \u00f6lk\u0259nin h\u0259r yerind\u0259 evl\u0259r\u0259, bahal\u0131 avtomobill\u0259r\u0259 yiy\u0259l\u0259nm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi. D\u00fcnyan\u0131 g\u0259zm\u0259k, b\u00fct\u00fcn m\u0259\u015fhurlarla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k, \u0259n bahal\u0131 otell\u0259rd\u0259 \u0259n bahal\u0131 i\u00e7kil\u0259ri i\u00e7m\u0259k d\u0259 arzular\u0131 s\u0131ras\u0131ndayd\u0131. H\u0259r do\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259 Rihannayla \u015eakiran\u0131 sa\u011f-solunda oturtmaq, bir futbol klubu t\u0259sis ed\u0259r\u0259k Messiyl\u0259 Ronaldonu bir komandada oynatmaq da x\u0259yallar\u0131na daxil idi. Bitib-t\u00fck\u0259nm\u0259z arzular\u0131 g\u00f6yd\u0259ki ulduzlardan \u00e7ox idi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
S\u0259n sayd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 say, g\u00f6r f\u0259l\u0259k n\u0259 say\u0131r. Dostlu\u011fumuzun 5-ci ilind\u0259 yaln\u0131z iki arzusunu realla\u015fd\u0131ra bildi. Evl\u0259ndi, ata oldu, bankdan kredit g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 avtomobil ald\u0131, sonra… Sonra imkans\u0131zl\u0131qdan h\u0259min ma\u015f\u0131nla s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcl\u00fck etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Ail\u0259 qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131, m\u0259i\u015f\u0259t probleml\u0259ri artd\u0131qca onunla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fcz seyr\u0259kl\u0259\u015fdi. O, indi b\u00f6y\u00fck imkanlar\u0131 olan, d\u00fcnyan\u0131 g\u0259z\u0259n, futbolu stadionlarda canl\u0131 izl\u0259y\u0259n adamlar\u0131 i\u00e7ki m\u0259clisl\u0259rind\u0259n s\u0259rxo\u015f \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 villalar\u0131na apar\u0131r. Bir s\u00f6zl\u0259, \u00f6z arzular\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015fqalar\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u0259r\u0259k b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 xiff\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
D.-nin d\u0259 arzular\u0131 vard\u0131. M.-d\u0259n \u00e7ox, B.-d\u0259n az. \u00c7ox ki\u00e7ik qismini realla\u015fd\u0131ra bildi. Bir az t\u0259nb\u0259llik, bir az \u00e7ox d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259k, bir az da risk\u0259 getm\u0259m\u0259k, bir az da\u2026 <\/p>\n\n\n\n
H\u0259, bu \u201cbir az\u201dlar D. kimi \u00e7oxunun h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259hv etdi. \u0130ndi h\u0259bsxana divarlar\u0131ndan bay\u0131ra boylanmaq – bu da bir arzuya \u00e7evrilib.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bir d\u00f6rd ki\u015fiydik. M., S., B., D. Tez-tez ucuz kafel\u0259rd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb d\u0259rdl\u0259\u015firdik. \u00d6lk\u0259nin d\u00fcn\u0259nind\u0259n, bu g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259n, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131q. Planlar tutur, x\u0259yallar qururduq. Birimizd\u0259 arzular \u00e7ox, dig\u0259rimizd\u0259 bir q\u0259d\u0259r az, o birind\u0259 s\u0131f\u0131ra yax\u0131n. Amma he\u00e7 birimiz S.-l\u0259 raz\u0131la\u015fm\u0131rd\u0131q, Di g\u0259l, reall\u0131q S.-in ist\u0259kl\u0259rin\u0259 m\u00fcnasib oldu. H\u0259yat S.-in \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00fcld\u00fc. Aram\u0131zda arzusu olmayan yegan\u0259 adam haql\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. \u201cBura arzular\u0131n d\u0259fn oldu\u011fu bir \u00f6lk\u0259dir, \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131n arzu tutmay\u0131n\u201d dey\u0259n insana haqq verm\u0259m\u0259k olmur. \u018fn b\u00f6y\u00fck ist\u0259yini h\u0259yata ke\u00e7ir\u0259n adam indi b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 Bel\u00e7ikada bizim arzular\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fc \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn realla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b. Bizim yerimiz\u0259 d\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131r. Ax\u0131 bura S.-in dediyi kimi arzular\u0131n d\u0259fn olundu\u011fu b\u00f6y\u00fck xiyaban, \u00fcmidl\u0259rin \u00f6ld\u00fcy\u00fc bir m\u0259ml\u0259k\u0259t, v\u0259t\u0259nda\u015flar\u0131 h\u00fcquqsuz ya\u015fayan bir diyard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Biz d\u00f6rd ki\u015fiydik. Ac olanda da, toxluqdan \u0259ziyy\u0259t \u00e7\u0259k\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259, beynimiz dumanlananda da \u201cg\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00fcnl\u0259r g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259yik, u\u015faqlar!\u201d mahn\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 z\u00fcmz\u00fcm\u0259 ed\u0259rdik.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0130ndi uzaqda ya\u015fayan S.-d\u0259, arzular\u0131 pu\u00e7 olan B.-d\u0259, h\u0259bsxanada m\u0259sk\u0259n salan D.-d\u0259 bir g\u00fcn musiqinin s\u00f6zl\u0259rinin ger\u00e7\u0259k olaca\u011f\u0131na, realla\u015faca\u011f\u0131na inan\u0131r. Bax, o zaman M.-d\u0259 \u00e7ox rahat uyuyacaq.<\/p>\n\n\n\n