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“Anar\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin ya\u015fard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 o \u00e7a\u011facan m\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdim”<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Bu g\u00fcn yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 \u018fkr\u0259m \u018fylislinin 87 ya\u015f\u0131 tamam olur.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n \u018fkr\u0259m \u018fylisli 1937-ci ild\u0259 Ordubad rayonunun \u018fylis k\u0259ndind\u0259 d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259lib.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Nasir, \u015fair, dramaturq, t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259\u00e7i kimi f\u0259aliyy\u0259t g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259n \u018fkr\u0259m \u018fylisli h\u0259m d\u0259 Az\u0259rbaycan \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u0131nda hekay\u0259\u00e7ilik ustas\u0131 kimi tan\u0131n\u0131r.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Onun \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259ri h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n m\u00fcr\u0259kk\u0259b v\u0259 z\u0259ngin m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259sini \u0259ks etdirir, g\u00f6z\u0259llik v\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259rini t\u0259svir edir.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n 2012-ci ild\u0259 d\u0259rc edilmi\u015f “Da\u015f yuxular” povesti Az\u0259rbaycanda yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131ya t\u0259zyiql\u0259r\u0259 r\u0259vac verib.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Bundan sonra, o, Az\u0259rbaycan Prezidenti \u0130lham \u018fliyevin 7 fevral 2013-c\u00fc il tarixli S\u0259r\u0259ncam\u0131 il\u0259 Az\u0259rbaycan Prezidentinin f\u0259rdi t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00fcnd\u0259n v\u0259 “Xalq yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131s\u0131” f\u0259xri ad\u0131ndan m\u0259hrum edilib.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Onun “Da\u015f yuxular” \u0259s\u0259ri is\u0259 \u00f6lk\u0259d\u0259 qada\u011fan olunub.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n \u018fkr\u0259m \u018fylisli d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259d\u0259bi \u00e7evr\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 q\u0259bul edil\u0259n yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lardand\u0131r.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Az\u0259rbaycandak\u0131 t\u0259zyiql\u0259r\u0259 baxmayaraq, onun c\u0259sar\u0259ti qlobal \u0259d\u0259bi dair\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 intellektual azadl\u0131\u011f\u0131n v\u0259 yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131q d\u00f6z\u00fcml\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcn simvolu kimi q\u0259bul edilir.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Meydan TV \u018fkr\u0259m \u018fylislinin 87 illiyi il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u201cT\u0259nha \u00e7inar\u0131n na\u011f\u0131l\u0131\u201d yaz\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259qdim edir:<\/p>\n\n\n\n “T\u0259nha nar\u0131n na\u011f\u0131l\u0131\u201dn\u0131 oxuyanlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n 1.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Adam g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, yadda\u015f\u0131 durmadan z\u0259ifl\u0259yir, zehni-hafiz\u0259si g\u00fcn\u00fc-g\u00fcnd\u0259n xarabla\u015f\u0131r. Adlar, telefon n\u00f6mr\u0259l\u0259ri bir yana dursun, h\u0259rd\u0259n el\u0259 olurdu ki, g\u00fcnorta n\u0259 yediyini ax\u015fam yad\u0131na sala bilmirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n O g\u00fcn arvad\u0131 g\u00fcnortaya bi\u015firdiyi toyuq supunun duzunu \u00e7ox el\u0259mi\u015fdi v\u0259 t\u0259rslikd\u0259n el\u0259 h\u0259min g\u00fcn\u00fcn s\u0259h\u0259ri saytlar\u0131n birind\u0259 o, duzun yadda\u015f \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259dsiz ziyan\u0131 bar\u0259d\u0259 yek\u0259 bir yaz\u0131 oxumu\u015fdu. V\u0259 bunu arvad\u0131na dem\u0259k ist\u0259diyi yerd\u0259 DUZ s\u00f6z\u00fc bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 qeyb olub, \u0259r\u015f\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n S\u00f6zl\u0259rin yad\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xma\u011f\u0131 onu \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r d\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 narahat el\u0259mi\u015fdi. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 daha \u00e7ox narahat el\u0259di. Birc\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcn yox olma\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 sanki d\u00fcnya xeyli ki\u00e7ildi, balacala\u015fd\u0131. Ona el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, bu t\u0259h\u0259r azala-azala bir g\u00fcn s\u00f6z tamam qurtara bil\u0259r. S\u00f6zs\u00fcz d\u00fcnya, s\u00f6zs\u00fcz ya\u015fayan insan… yen\u0259 k\u0259nd yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259ri g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131na g\u0259ldi. V\u0259 bu yerd\u0259 \u0259hval\u0131 bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 tamam d\u0259yi\u015fdi. Adam\u0131n ruhu t\u0259z\u0259l\u0259ndi, i\u00e7i i\u015f\u0131qland\u0131. Ancaq ona g\u00f6r\u0259 yox ki, x\u0259yal\u0131na g\u0259tirdiyi o s\u00f6zs\u00fcz d\u00fcnya onun b\u0259rk xo\u015funa g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ki, Adam t\u0259kc\u0259 adam deyildi, h\u0259m d\u0259 yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131yd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 \u00e7oxdan\u0131n, k\u00f6hn\u0259nin yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131s\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00d6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn az qala 70 ilini h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 yazm\u0131\u015fd\u0131: \u015feir, hekay\u0259, m\u0259qal\u0259, pyes, ssenari, povest… \u0130ndi 3-4 ay olard\u0131 ki, he\u00e7 n\u0259 yaza bilmirdi. V\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fc \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f d\u00fcnya bar\u0259d\u0259 yazaca\u011f\u0131 \u0259s\u0259rin \u0259sl s\u0259n\u0259t n\u00fcmun\u0259si olaca\u011f\u0131na art\u0131q \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc inand\u0131ra bilmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Arvad da, x\u00f6r\u0259k d\u0259 yad\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Fikirl\u0259\u015fdi ki, b\u0259lk\u0259 s\u00f6z do\u011frudan da \u00f6l\u00fcb. Qocaman yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259z \u0259qid\u0259sin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, diri s\u00f6z say\u0131lma\u011fa yaln\u0131z do\u011fru s\u00f6z\u00fcn haqq\u0131 vard\u0131. \u0130ndi hardayd\u0131 o do\u011fru s\u00f6z, onu dey\u0259n kim idi, yazan kim idi…<\/p>\n\n\n\n Tutaq ki, he\u00e7 bir siyas\u0259t\u00e7i s\u00f6z\u00fcn d\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc deyib, siyas\u0259tin l\u0259zz\u0259tini qa\u00e7\u0131rmaq ist\u0259mirdi. B\u0259s, g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u00e7\u0131lara n\u0259 olmu\u015fdu? \u00dc\u00e7 min\u0259 yax\u0131n AYB \u00fczv\u00fcn\u00fcn h\u0259r biri g\u00fcnd\u0259 birc\u0259 d\u0259n\u0259 do\u011fru s\u00f6z yazsayd\u0131, bu qurumun m\u0259tbuat orqanlar\u0131nda yer alan diri s\u00f6z\u00fcn say\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fc s\u00f6z\u00fcn say\u0131ndan az\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7 d\u0259f\u0259 \u00e7ox olard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Qocaman \u0259dibin k\u00f6hn\u0259lib c\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015f \u0259qid\u0259sin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lara Prezident t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00fc verm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u00f6vl\u0259t t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n ayr\u0131lan v\u0259sait son q\u0259piyin\u0259c\u0259n yaln\u0131z do\u011fru s\u00f6z yazan yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 v\u0259 \u015fairl\u0259r\u0259 verilm\u0259liydi. Diri s\u00f6z\u00fc \u00f6l\u00fc s\u00f6zd\u0259n ay\u0131ra bilm\u0259y\u0259n he\u00e7 bir q\u0259l\u0259m sahibi Xalq \u015fairi, Xalq yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 ad\u0131na layiq g\u00f6r\u00fclm\u0259m\u0259liydi. Do\u011frunu qoyub yalan\u0131 yazma\u011f\u0131n sovetd\u0259nqalma \u0259n\u0259n\u0259sin\u0259 bird\u0259f\u0259lik son qoyulmal\u0131yd\u0131. Sabiq Xalq yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n fikrinc\u0259, bu i\u015fi h\u0259yata ke\u00e7irm\u0259k \u0259sla asan olmayacaqd\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnki d\u00fcz\u00fc qoyub yalan\u0131 yazmaq \u0259n\u0259n\u0259si ya\u015f\u0131 doxsan\u0131 haqlayan bu m\u00f6t\u0259b\u0259r t\u0259\u015fkilat\u0131n t\u0259kc\u0259 \u00fczvl\u0259rinin deyil, h\u0259tta da\u015f\u0131n\u0131n-divar\u0131n\u0131n da can\u0131na hopmu\u015fdu, iliyin\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259mi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Bir m\u0259\u015fhur Xalq yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 vard\u0131: r\u0259hm\u0259tlik \u018fli V\u0259liyev. S\u00f6z\u00fcn d\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc dey\u0259n adam ad\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Olduqca \u0259qid\u0259li kommunist idi. O q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259qid\u0259liydi ki, bir o\u011flunun ad\u0131n\u0131 Marks, o biri o\u011flunun ad\u0131n\u0131 Engels qoymu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Bu m\u0259\u015fhur Xalq yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 ke\u00e7mi\u015fd\u0259 muzdur olmu\u015fdu. Qubadl\u0131da bir varl\u0131 adam\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131nda n\u00f6k\u0259r\u00e7ilik el\u0259mi\u015fdi. V\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcn do\u011frusunu dem\u0259kd\u0259 ad \u00e7\u0131xaran bu \u0259qid\u0259li kommunist, n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r q\u0259rib\u0259 olsa da, \u00f6z ke\u00e7mi\u015f a\u011fas\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259rifl\u0259m\u0259kd\u0259n d\u0259 h\u0259rd\u0259n ehtiyat el\u0259mirmi\u015f. O varl\u0131 ki\u015finin s\u0259xav\u0259ti, m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259ti, alic\u0259nabl\u0131\u011f\u0131 bar\u0259d\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259k q\u0131zd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 adamlara h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259 c\u00fcrb\u0259c\u00fcr \u0259hvalatlar dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Deyil\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, o d\u00f6vr\u00fcn g\u0259nc t\u0259nqid\u00e7il\u0259rind\u0259n biri Xalq yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n bu h\u0259dsiz s\u0259mimiyy\u0259tind\u0259n heyr\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259lir. “B\u0259s bunlar\u0131 niy\u0259 yazm\u0131rs\u0131z, \u018fli m\u00fc\u0259llim,\u201d \u2013 deyir. Cavan t\u0259nqid\u00e7id\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259diyi sual Xalq yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 m\u00f6hk\u0259m q\u0259z\u0259bl\u0259ndirir. “Dur burdan r\u0259dd ol, \u2013 deyir. \u2013 S\u0259n s\u00f6z dem\u0259li adam deyils\u0259n!..\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Bu q\u0259bild\u0259n ba\u015fqa bir misal: yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 v\u0259 q\u0259zet\u00e7i Az\u0259r Abdullan\u0131 tan\u0131yan y\u0259qin ki, \u00e7oxdur. Bak\u0131ya Erm\u0259nistan\u0131n Mehri rayonunun hans\u0131sa k\u0259ndind\u0259n g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Sakit t\u0259bi\u0259tli insan idi. M\u00fclayim xasiyy\u0259ti, xo\u015fag\u0259lim yum\u015faq s\u0259si vard\u0131. Yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131na yax\u0131ndan b\u0259l\u0259d olmasam da, Az\u0259rbaycan-Erm\u0259nistan m\u00fcnaqi\u015f\u0259si m\u00f6vzusunda yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 m\u0259qal\u0259sini oxumu\u015fdum. Aram\u0131zda s\u0259mimi \u00fcnsiyy\u0259t vard\u0131. Tez-tez g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259s\u0259k d\u0259, Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar \u0130ttifaq\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131ndak\u0131 “Sahil\u201d ba\u011f\u0131nda arabir rastla\u015f\u0131b d\u0259rdl\u0259\u015firdik. V\u0259 bu g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rin birind\u0259 Az\u0259r az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131 \u0259halinin Mehrid\u0259ki o k\u0259ndd\u0259n nec\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xma\u011f\u0131 bar\u0259d\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t a\u00e7d\u0131. S\u0259n dem\u0259, k\u0259ndin sad\u0259 erm\u0259ni camaat\u0131 az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131lar\u0131n k\u0259ndi t\u0259rk etm\u0259sini q\u0259tiyy\u0259n ist\u0259mirmi\u015f. Y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131b az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131lara yalvar\u0131rm\u0131\u015flar: getm\u0259yin, hara gedirsiniz, he\u00e7 k\u0259si qoymar\u0131q sizi incitsin, oturun evinizd\u0259, bu vaxtacan bu k\u0259ndd\u0259 nec\u0259 ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f\u0131q, bundan sonra da el\u0259c\u0259 ya\u015fayaca\u011f\u0131q.<\/p>\n\n\n\n M\u0259n Az\u0259rin dediyin\u0259 inand\u0131m, he\u00e7 bir pis niyy\u0259t g\u00fcdm\u0259d\u0259n “Az\u0259r, \u2013 dedim, \u2013 b\u0259s bunu niy\u0259 yazm\u0131rsan?\u201d Az\u0259r bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 bozard\u0131, n\u0259 bozard\u0131. Sif\u0259ti d\u0259, s\u0259si d\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fdi. Ucadan dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 he\u00e7 vaxt e\u015fitm\u0259diyim Az\u0259r az qala var s\u0259sl\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131b: “M\u0259n bunu niy\u0259 yazmal\u0131yam!\u201d \u2013 dedi v\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259n s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 uzaqla\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0130ndi siz d\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcn\u00fczm\u00fc ki, do\u011frunu qoyub yalan\u0131 yazmaq t\u0259kc\u0259 xalq yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n \u015fak\u0259ri deyil.<\/p>\n\n\n\n 2.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n N\u0259yi yalan, n\u0259yi do\u011fru yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 dem\u0259y\u0259 c\u0259sar\u0259t el\u0259mir\u0259m. Ancaq q\u0259tiyy\u0259tl\u0259 dey\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m ki, he\u00e7 vaxt bil\u0259r\u0259kd\u0259n yalan yazmam\u0131\u015fam. B\u0259lk\u0259, n\u0259d\u0259s\u0259 s\u0259hv el\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. B\u0259lk\u0259, haradasa hiss\u0259 qap\u0131l\u0131b, qurunun oduna ya\u015f\u0131 da yand\u0131rm\u0131\u015fam. Amma yalan\u0131n yalan oldu\u011funu h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m, duymu\u015fam. Ona sonsuz nifr\u0259timi \u00e7ox vaxt gizl\u0259d\u0259 bilm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. V\u0259 can\u0131mda-qan\u0131mda olan yalans\u0131z ya\u015famaq ehtiyac\u0131 m\u0259ni he\u00e7 vaxt rahat ya\u015fama\u011fa qoymay\u0131b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n 87 illik \u00f6mr\u00fcm boyunca b\u0259lk\u0259 min d\u0259f\u0259 s\u0259hv el\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. H\u0259rd\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, \u00f6mr\u00fcm ba\u015fdan-ba\u015fa s\u0259hvl\u0259rd\u0259n ibar\u0259t olub.<\/p>\n\n\n\n D\u00fcnyaya, insana, h\u0259yata m\u00fcnasib\u0259tim d\u00f6n\u0259-d\u00f6n\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fib. B\u0259z\u0259n \u00e7a\u015f\u0131b dostu d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n, d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259ni dost bilmi\u015f\u0259m. Ancaq he\u00e7 vaxt haqq\u0131 nahaqq\u0131n, do\u011frunu yalan\u0131n aya\u011f\u0131na verm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. V\u0259 bu bitib-t\u00fck\u0259nm\u0259z \u00f6m\u00fcr sava\u015f\u0131nda yorulub heyd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 sanki m\u0259ni m\u0259nd\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 tan\u0131yan hans\u0131sa do\u011fma, i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 bir s\u0259s h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 dad\u0131ma \u00e7at\u0131b. Deyib: M\u00f6hk\u0259m dur, t\u0259slim olma. Qorxma, \u00fcr\u0259kli ol. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 arxay\u0131n ol ki, d\u00fcnyan\u0131 yalanla iyl\u0259ndir\u0259nl\u0259r s\u0259ni m\u0259hv ed\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r…<\/p>\n\n\n\n V\u0259 m\u0259n bu s\u0259si e\u015fidib h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259nmi\u015f\u0259m. Q\u0259lbimi-k\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fc sevmi\u015f\u0259m, ona g\u00fcv\u0259nmi\u015f\u0259m. V\u0259 bel\u0259 bir \u00fcr\u0259yin sahibi oldu\u011fuma sevinib M\u00fc\u015ffiqin \u00f6lm\u0259z misralar\u0131n\u0131 xat\u0131rlam\u0131\u015fam:<\/p>\n\n\n\n T\u0259rlansan, g\u00f6yd\u0259n enm\u0259zs\u0259n,<\/em> S\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m, b\u0259dbinl\u0259\u015fdiyim \u00fcmidsiz-i\u015f\u0131qs\u0131z depressiyal\u0131 g\u00fcnl\u0259rim, aylar\u0131m da az olmay\u0131b. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 hardansa bir z\u0259rr\u0259 \u00fcmid tap\u0131l\u0131b, m\u0259ni qat\u0131 qaranl\u0131qdan i\u015f\u0131\u011fa \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Depressiyan\u0131 t\u00f6r\u0259d\u0259n s\u0259b\u0259bl\u0259rin ham\u0131s\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259 ki, he\u00e7 k\u0259s\u0259 m\u0259lum deyil. M\u0259nc\u0259, depressiya, b\u00fct\u00fcn hallarda, ruhi yor\u011funluq \u0259lam\u0259tidir. Bel\u0259 bir depressiv \u00e7\u0131x\u0131lmazl\u0131q 1987-ci ilin yaz\u0131nda, 50 ya\u015f\u0131m\u0131n \u0259r\u0259f\u0259sind\u0259 m\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259d\u0259n yaman yaxalad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n O 50 ilin az\u0131 30 ilini m\u0259n b\u00fcsb\u00fct\u00fcn yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011fa h\u0259sr el\u0259mi\u015fdim. “Adamlar v\u0259 a\u011faclar\u201d art\u0131q yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, yax\u015f\u0131 u\u011fur qazanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131: t\u0259kc\u0259 Az\u0259rbaycanda deyil, ovaxtk\u0131 Sovet \u0130ttifaq\u0131n\u0131n az qala b\u00fct\u00fcn respublikalar\u0131nda, h\u0259tta \u015e\u0259rqi Avropan\u0131n bir ne\u00e7\u0259 \u00f6lk\u0259sind\u0259 d\u0259 n\u0259\u015fr edilmi\u015fdi. Yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m dig\u0259r povest v\u0259 hekay\u0259l\u0259r Bak\u0131da, Moskvada, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n bir s\u0131ra yax\u0131n v\u0259 uzaq m\u0259ml\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rind\u0259 ard-arda \u00e7ap olunmu\u015fdu. Rus v\u0259 d\u00fcnya \u0259d\u0259biyyatdan el\u0259diyim \u00e7ox sayda t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259l\u0259r geni\u015f oxucu k\u00fctl\u0259sinin mara\u011f\u0131na s\u0259b\u0259b olmu\u015fdu. V\u0259 yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n ciddi u\u011furlar\u0131 sayd\u0131\u011f\u0131m “D\u0259hn\u0259\u201d v\u0259 “A\u011f d\u0259r\u0259\u201d povestl\u0259rim d\u0259 yaz\u0131l\u0131b \u00e7ap edil\u0259nd\u0259n sonra m\u0259niml\u0259 \u0259d\u0259biyyat aras\u0131nda sanki bir qorxulu-vahim\u0259li u\u00e7urum yaranm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bu iki \u0259s\u0259rd\u0259n sonra daha n\u0259s\u0259 yaza bil\u0259c\u0259yim\u0259 he\u00e7 bir \u00fcmidim yox idi. Yazma\u011fa \u00fcmidi olmayan yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fcnyada ba\u015fqa n\u0259 ya\u015fada bil\u0259rdi…<\/p>\n\n\n\n D\u00f6rd-be\u015f il idi “Az\u0259rbaycan\u201d jurnal\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f redaktorlu\u011fundan \u00f6z ist\u0259yiml\u0259 uzaqla\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. He\u00e7 yerd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259mirdim, he\u00e7 n\u0259y\u0259 h\u0259v\u0259sim yox idi. \u018fn maraql\u0131 m\u0259\u015f\u011fuliyy\u0259tim, o vaxt d\u0259bd\u0259 olan “Z\u00fcmr\u00fcd\u201d restoran\u0131nda, Anar v\u0259 Yusifl\u0259 h\u0259ft\u0259d\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 yeyib-i\u00e7m\u0259kdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Oturub saatlarla televizora bax\u0131rd\u0131m. D\u0259nizk\u0259nar\u0131 bulvar\u0131, g\u00fcnd\u0259 iki d\u0259f\u0259, o ba\u015f bu ba\u015f ayaqdan sal\u0131rd\u0131m. El\u0259 o bulvarda da g\u00fcnl\u0259rin bir g\u00fcn\u00fc m\u0259n ill\u0259rl\u0259 can\u0131mda-qan\u0131mda g\u0259zdirdiyim bir arzunu \u2013 \u018fylisd\u0259 ev tikm\u0259k arzusunu h\u0259yata ke\u00e7irm\u0259yi q\u0259ti q\u0259rara ald\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Pul vard\u0131. H\u0259yat\u0131mda ilk d\u0259f\u0259ydi ki, \u0259lim\u0259 az vaxta xeyli pul d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. O il “Az\u0259rn\u0259\u015fr\u201dd\u0259 ikicildlik se\u00e7ilmi\u015f \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259rim n\u0259\u015fr edilmi\u015fdi. “G\u0259nclik\u201dd\u0259 d\u0259 bir qal\u0131n kitab\u0131m \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. SSR\u0130 Kinematoqrafiya Komit\u0259sinin sifari\u015fi il\u0259 yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m “S\u00fcr\u0259yya\u201d adl\u0131 ssenariy\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 kinostudiyadan yeddi min pul alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. O vaxt yeddi minin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 3-4 min d\u0259 qoyub t\u0259z\u0259 “Volqa\u201d almaq olurdu. Buna baxmayaraq, \u018fylis\u0259 getm\u0259k \u0259r\u0259f\u0259sind\u0259 \u0259rkim \u00e7atan dost-tan\u0131\u015fdan bir q\u0259d\u0259r borc da g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm ki, evi tikib ba\u015fa \u00e7atd\u0131raca\u011f\u0131ma he\u00e7 bir \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259 yeri qalmas\u0131n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Bak\u0131dan h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259lik getm\u0259yi q\u0259rara ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m o g\u00fcn bir k\u00fcl\u0259ksiz, g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fli yaz g\u00fcn\u00fcyd\u00fc. May ay\u0131n\u0131n \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259riydi, h\u0259l\u0259 istil\u0259r d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259mi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n O g\u00fcn m\u0259n Bulvar\u0131n bir t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 skamyada b\u00fcz\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb oturmu\u015f Mirz\u0259 \u0130brahimovu g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Bulvar\u0131n o biri t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 qocal\u0131b beli b\u00fck\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f Osman Sar\u0131v\u0259lli uzaqdan-uza\u011fa g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 d\u0259ydi: o\u011flu Bab\u0259k atas\u0131n\u0131n qolundan yap\u0131\u015f\u0131b, pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259rl\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fca\u015fa\u011f\u0131, d\u0259niz\u0259 yax\u0131n skamyalara t\u0259r\u0259f apar\u0131rd\u0131. Yox, yox, m\u0259n bel\u0259 qocal\u0131\u011f\u0131 ist\u0259mir\u0259m. \u0130lyas\u0131m, N\u0259c\u0259fim\u2014balalar\u0131m, \u018fylisin qocalar\u0131 bu q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259nha v\u0259 yaz\u0131q olmur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Bulvardan el\u0259 s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 uzaqla\u015fd\u0131m ki, sanki m\u0259ni arxadan qovan vard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n 3.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Nax\u00e7\u0131van h\u00f6kum\u0259ti m\u0259nim \u018fylisd\u0259 ev tikm\u0259k ist\u0259yimi h\u0259qiqi diqq\u0259t v\u0259 qay\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131. Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar \u0130ttifaq\u0131n\u0131n, \u0130smay\u0131l \u015e\u0131xl\u0131n\u0131n imzalad\u0131\u011f\u0131, \u0259l boyda ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131 \u0259sas\u0131nda m\u0259n\u0259 \u018fylisin ist\u0259diyim yerind\u0259 ev tikm\u0259y\u0259 icaz\u0259 verdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Tikinti alt\u0131 ay \u00e7\u0259kdi: iyunun ortalar\u0131ndan dekabr\u0131n ortalar\u0131nacan. V\u0259 o alt\u0131 ayda m\u0259nim bir g\u00fcn d\u0259 dincliyim olmad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0130\u015f \u00e7ox idi. Sementind\u0259n, qumundan tutmu\u015f da\u015f\u0131na, taxtas\u0131nacan \u2013 b\u00fct\u00fcn tikinti materiallar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcm t\u0259\u015fkil el\u0259yirdim. \u0130\u015fl\u0259y\u0259nl\u0259rin g\u00fcnorta yem\u0259yi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn laz\u0131m olan azuq\u0259nin d\u00fckan-bazardan al\u0131nmas\u0131 il\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olurdum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Ancaq, Allaha \u015f\u00fck\u00fcrl\u0259r olsun ki, m\u0259n orda t\u0259k deyildim. Arxas\u0131z v\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259ksiz d\u0259 deyildim. B\u00f6y\u00fck qarda\u015f\u0131m Cavid, ail\u0259sil\u0259 birg\u0259 h\u0259r g\u00fcn yan\u0131mdayd\u0131. Ordubad rayon Partiya Komit\u0259sinin Birinci katibi, i\u015fbil\u0259nliyin\u0259 v\u0259 \u0259lit\u0259mizliyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 rayon camaat\u0131n\u0131n h\u00f6rm\u0259tini qazanm\u0131\u015f \u015e\u0259kk\u00fcl \u018fl\u0259sk\u0259rov h\u0259r i\u015fimd\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259klik g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259y\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 can-ba\u015fla haz\u0131r idi. Nax\u00e7\u0131van r\u0259hb\u0259rliyinin n\u0259z\u0259r-diqq\u0259tini d\u0259 \u00fcz\u0259rimd\u0259 h\u0259rd\u0259n hiss el\u0259yirdim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n M\u0259n \u018fylisd\u0259 ya\u015fama\u011f\u0131n dar\u0131xmaqs\u0131z da m\u00fcmk\u00fcn oldu\u011funa \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc inand\u0131rma\u011fa getmi\u015fdim. M\u0259n\u0259 bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 m\u0259lum oldu ki, orda dar\u0131xmaqdan h\u0259tta \u00f6l\u0259 d\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m. Ev i\u015fi tam yekunla\u015fandan, h\u0259y\u0259t-bacadan s\u0259s-s\u0259mir, \u0259l-ayaq k\u0259sil\u0259nd\u0259n sonra \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc o q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259nha v\u0259 kims\u0259siz hiss el\u0259dim ki, az qald\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ma hava g\u0259lsin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0130\u015f qurtarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Pul da qurtarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u0130ndi m\u0259n kim idim, n\u0259\u00e7iydim, m\u0259ni ir\u0259lid\u0259 n\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi?..<\/p>\n\n\n\n El\u0259 bil bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fcn i\u00e7ind\u0259 alt\u0131 ay\u0131n yuxusundan ay\u0131ld\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Ay\u0131l\u0131b g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ki, balalar\u0131m da Bak\u0131da t\u0259nhad\u0131r, m\u0259nsizdir, kims\u0259sizdir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n G\u00f6rd\u00fcm ki, d\u00fcnyada m\u0259n d\u0259 bir ev tikmi\u015f\u0259m, ancaq d\u00fcnya yen\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259nim deyil.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Be\u015f-on g\u00fcn \u018fylisi, enin\u0259-uzununa, d\u0259li kimi dolanandan sonra evin qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011flay\u0131b Bak\u0131ya yola d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n\n\n\n 4.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Bir Natiq S\u0259f\u0259rov vard\u0131: i\u00e7m\u0259yind\u0259n d\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt qalmayan, qu\u015fdan ay\u0131q Natiq S\u0259f\u0259rov.<\/p>\n\n\n\n V\u0259 h\u0259min qu\u015fdan ay\u0131q Natiq S\u0259f\u0259rov sonralar, xalis nax\u00e7\u0131vanl\u0131 l\u0259hc\u0259sind\u0259, m\u0259n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259kdi: “Getd\u0131n \u018fylisd\u0259 nastalgiyava heyk\u0259l qeyirib g\u0259ld\u0131n\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n V\u0259 o qu\u015fdan ay\u0131q Natiq bunu tamamil\u0259 do\u011fru dey\u0259c\u0259kdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Ev o vaxt ev say\u0131l\u0131r ki, i\u00e7ind\u0259 insan ya\u015fay\u0131r. M\u0259nim k\u0259ndd\u0259 \u2013 k\u0259ndin evl\u0259rind\u0259n, insanlardan aral\u0131da \u2013 \u00e7\u00f6l\u00fcn d\u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 tikdirdiyim o ev xeyli vaxt do\u011frudan da cans\u0131z heyk\u0259l\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Sonra d\u00fcnya az vaxtda tamam d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259c\u0259kdi. Tan\u0131\u015f sif\u0259tl\u0259r tan\u0131nmaz olacaqd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Sovet h\u00f6kum\u0259ti da\u011f\u0131lacaqd\u0131, milyonlarla insan taleyi da\u011f\u0131nt\u0131lar alt\u0131nda qalacaqd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0130nsan zal\u0131mla\u015facaqd\u0131. \u00dcr\u0259kl\u0259rd\u0259 m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259t qalmayacaqd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0130st\u0259diyimiz \u00f6lk\u0259ni qura bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdik. \u018fn g\u00f6z\u0259l arzular\u0131m\u0131z da\u015f o\u011flu da\u015flara toxunub, termos \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259si kimi s\u0131n\u0131b, \u00e7ilik-\u00e7ilik i\u00e7imiz\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259c\u0259kdi. D\u00fcnyada sevinm\u0259li he\u00e7 n\u0259 qalmayacaqd\u0131. Onda \u018fylis m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yegan\u0259 \u00fcmid yeri olacaqd\u0131:<\/p>\n\n\n\n M\u0259nim o yerl\u0259r\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u0259yim g\u0259lir.<\/em> Daha s\u0259br etm\u0259y\u0259 hal\u0131m qalmay\u0131b,<\/em> Da\u015f dibind\u0259n ba\u015f qald\u0131ran g\u00f6y otdum,<\/em> El\u0259 bill\u0259m bu da bir pis yuxuydu:<\/em> G\u0259ldim, bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin h\u0259r \u00fcz\u00fcn g\u00f6rd\u00fcm,<\/em> Bu da bir yol idi \u2013 tutub gedirdim:<\/em> He\u00e7 bilm\u0259dim nec\u0259 oldu b\u00f6y\u00fcrd\u0259n<\/em> G\u0259ldim \u2013 bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n m\u0259\u011fzini g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.<\/em> \u018fyya\u015flar\u0131n hac\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n da g\u00f6rd\u00fcm,<\/em> G\u00f6z\u00fcm baxa-baxa soyundu d\u00fcnya:<\/em> M\u0259n\u0259 \u0259l el\u0259yir \u0259li \u018fylisin,<\/em> M\u0259nim o yerl\u0259r\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u0259yim g\u0259lir,<\/em> Allah, dinl\u0259 m\u0259ni, dinm\u0259yim g\u0259lir,<\/em> M\u0259nim o yerl\u0259r\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u0259yim g\u0259lir.<\/em> “D\u00fcnyada el\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259r var ki, onlar\u0131 yaln\u0131z \u015feirl\u0259 dem\u0259k olur\u201d \u2013 bunu k\u00f6hn\u0259 hekay\u0259l\u0259rimd\u0259n birind\u0259 demi\u015fdim. \u018fylis\u0259 g\u0259li\u015fimd\u0259, d\u0259v\u0259tlisi oldu\u011fum ilk toyda bu \u015feiri az qala a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya dedim. \u015eeird\u0259 “\u0259yya\u015flar\u0131n hac\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131\u201d v\u0259 “d\u0259yyuslar\u0131n ucal\u0131\u011f\u0131\u201d bar\u0259d\u0259 dedikl\u0259rim \u018fylisin \u015feir h\u0259v\u0259skarlar\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7ox xo\u015funa g\u0259ldi. Ancaq, m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, \u015feirin ba\u015fqa iki misras\u0131 daha t\u0259sirliydi:<\/p>\n\n\n\n Yor\u011fun \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259 bir a\u011fac altda,<\/em> M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 buras\u0131ndad\u0131r ki, ill\u0259rin ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan sonra yegan\u0259 \u00fcmid yeri bilib getdiyim o \u018fylisd\u0259, \u00e7ox a\u011faclar yerind\u0259 olsa da, m\u0259nim k\u00f6lg\u0259sind\u0259 oturub \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259 layla \u00e7ala bil\u0259c\u0259yim bir a\u011fac da yox idi. \u018fylis d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi, m\u0259n d\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdim, he\u00e7 a\u011faclar da \u0259vv\u0259lki a\u011faclar deyildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Nostalji duy\u011fular\u0131n insan\u0131n ruhi varl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda n\u0259 kimi t\u0259lat\u00fcml\u0259r do\u011furma\u011fa qadir oldu\u011funu “Y\u0259m\u0259n\u201d adl\u0131 povestimd\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259m\u0259 alm\u0131\u015fam. Povestin ba\u015f q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131, uzun ill\u0259rd\u0259n sonra Bak\u0131dan Buzbula\u011fa qay\u0131dan S\u0259fal\u0131 m\u00fc\u0259llimin m\u00fc\u015fahid\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn \u018fylisd\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259rimi \u0259trafl\u0131-\u0259hat\u0259li t\u0259svir el\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n M\u0259n \u018fylis\u0259 yazma\u011fa getm\u0259mi\u015fdim, ya\u015fama\u011f\u0131n yazmaqs\u0131z da m\u00fcmk\u00fcn oldu\u011funa \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc inand\u0131rma\u011fa getmi\u015fdim. Ancaq inand\u0131ra bilmirdim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Q\u0259rib\u0259dir, m\u0259n yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131l\u0131qdan \u0259l \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim, yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q m\u0259nd\u0259n \u0259l \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi. \u0130\u00e7imd\u0259 ara-s\u0131ra sonralar yazaca\u011f\u0131m yaz\u0131lar\u0131n isti mehi \u0259sirdi, toxumu c\u00fcc\u0259rirdi: “Yaz\u0131\u011fam, sevm\u0259 m\u0259ni\u201d, “Yol\u201d, “\u018ftir\u015fah Masan\u201d, “Ceviz k\u00f6lg\u0259sinin na\u011f\u0131l\u0131\u201d, “\u00c7\u0259m\u0259nlikd\u0259 ziyaf\u0259t\u201d, “Da\u011flar deyir ki, soyuqdur…\u201d Sonralar Bak\u0131da yazaca\u011f\u0131m bu \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259rin h\u0259r birinin m\u00f6vzusu o vaxt \u018fylisd\u0259 do\u011fulmu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n M\u0259n \u018fylis\u0259 gec-tez \u00f6yr\u0259\u015f\u0259c\u0259kdim. \u0130tirdiyim \u018fylisi unudub, tapd\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u018fylisl\u0259 bar\u0131\u015facaqd\u0131m. Bak\u0131dak\u0131 m\u0259nzilimd\u0259 \u018fylisi yen\u0259 h\u0259r gec\u0259 yuxuda g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259kdim: atamdan qalan evi, o evin h\u0259y\u0259tini, ba\u011f-bacas\u0131n\u0131n otunu, a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131, o a\u011faclar\u0131n bir vaxt k\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fc ovlam\u0131\u015f r\u0259ngb\u0259r\u0259ng \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259yini… O yuxularda \u018fylisin yazda lal\u0259li, q\u0131\u015fda qarl\u0131 da\u011flar\u0131 m\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u00fcb sevin\u0259c\u0259kdi. Ad\u0131na \u018fylisd\u0259 “Yah\u0259qq\u201d qu\u015fu deyil\u0259n \u0130sa-Musa qu\u015funun gec\u0259 nal\u0259si q\u0259lbimi, ruhumu yerind\u0259n oynadacaqd\u0131. Amma, s\u0259n Allah\u0131n i\u015fin\u0259 bax ki, \u018fylisd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm tikdirdiyim o ev bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 yuxuma girm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0130ndi m\u0259n, qocal\u0131qdan, ya n\u0259d\u0259ndirs\u0259, son vaxtlar Bak\u0131dak\u0131 ilk ya\u015fay\u0131\u015f yerimi daha \u00e7ox yuxuda g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m. Bak\u0131n\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259li k\u00f6hn\u0259 binalar\u0131ndan birinin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259sind\u0259 uca tavanl\u0131 t\u0259k otaq… \u015e\u0259rikli m\u0259nzil idi. Ota\u011f\u0131m\u0131n bir t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 bir qoca y\u0259hudi qad\u0131n, o biri t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 iki azya\u015fl\u0131 u\u015faq b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u0259n cavan az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131 ail\u0259si ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. \u015e\u0259rikli m\u0259tb\u0259x, \u015f\u0259rikli tualet, hamam\u0131 is\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ancaq Allah\u0131n i\u015fin\u0259 bax ki, m\u0259n yuxuda o ota\u011f\u0131 oldu\u011fundan qat-qat g\u00f6z\u0259l, oldu\u011fundan qat-qat geni\u015f v\u0259 i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m. B\u0259lk\u0259 ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ki, yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n \u0259n m\u0259hsuldar 7 ili h\u0259min otaqda ke\u00e7ib.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Bir vaxtlar o otaqda Anarla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f\u00fck, onunla dost kimi, qarda\u015f kimi, sevincimizi-k\u0259d\u0259rimizi b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f\u00fck.<\/p>\n\n\n\n O otaqda \u0130sa \u0130smay\u0131lzad\u0259, \u018fl\u0259kb\u0259r Salahzad\u0259, Ramiz R\u00f6v\u015f\u0259n yazd\u0131qlar\u0131 h\u0259r \u015feiri ilk d\u0259f\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 oxuyub. \u0130si M\u0259likzad\u0259 h\u0259r yeni \u0259s\u0259rinin bar\u0259sind\u0259 ilk r\u0259yi h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259n e\u015fidib.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Yuxular\u0131mda m\u0259nim o \u015f\u0259rikli ota\u011f\u0131m\u0131 ill\u0259rdir he\u00e7 k\u0259s tutmur. \u015e\u0259rikli d\u0259hlizd\u0259n ke\u00e7ib, ota\u011f\u0131m\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7ma\u011f\u0131ma kims\u0259 mane olmur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n O yuxularda m\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt adam g\u00f6rm\u00fcr\u0259m, otaq dolusu, \u00fcr\u0259k dolusu, dumduru i\u015f\u0131q g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n 5.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n O uzaq 1987-ci il\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131ram.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Bak\u0131ya g\u0259ldiyim g\u00fcn, ax\u015famt\u0259r\u0259fi, Anarla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri\u015f\u0259h\u0259rin “Karvansara\u201d restoran\u0131nda xeyli oturduq.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0130ttifaqa s\u0259dr se\u00e7ilm\u0259sind\u0259n bir ne\u00e7\u0259 ay ke\u00e7irdi. Anar \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn m\u0259n\u0259 borclu oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 bil\u0259rdi: onun s\u0259dr se\u00e7ilm\u0259sind\u0259 x\u00fcsusi f\u0259all\u0131q g\u00f6st\u0259rmi\u015fdim. Ancaq Anar\u0131n o ax\u015famk\u0131 t\u0259klifi m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn xeyli d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259d\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259z oldu: Anar m\u0259n\u0259 Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar \u0130ttifaq\u0131n\u0131n katibi olma\u011f\u0131 t\u0259klif el\u0259yirdi. M\u0259n onun bu t\u0259klifini q\u0259tiyy\u0259tl\u0259 r\u0259dd el\u0259dim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Anar\u0131n kefi pozuldu. R\u0259ngi bo\u011fuldu. Q\u0259h\u0259rli, titr\u0259k s\u0259sl\u0259:<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2013 Onda m\u0259n d\u0259 orda i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m, \u2013 dedi v\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcn h\u0259rfi m\u0259nas\u0131nda g\u00f6zl\u0259ri ya\u015fard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Anar\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin ya\u015fard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 o \u00e7a\u011facan m\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Raz\u0131la\u015fd\u0131m. H\u0259tta bir azca da rahatland\u0131m. V\u0259zif\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yimc\u0259 olmasa da, h\u0259r halda i\u015f\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259kdim. Ail\u0259nin dolan\u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 t\u0259kc\u0259 qonorar \u00fcmidin\u0259 qalmayacqd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n M\u0259n o idar\u0259y\u0259, m\u00fcxt\u0259lif fasil\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259, iki-\u00fc\u00e7 il gedib g\u0259ldim. Ancaq o v\u0259zif\u0259y\u0259 bir g\u00fcn d\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259k q\u0131zd\u0131ra bilm\u0259dim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n O vaxtdan az qala 40 il ke\u00e7ir. \u0130ndi olub-ke\u00e7\u0259nl\u0259ri yada salanda n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 \u018fylisd\u0259n qay\u0131td\u0131\u011f\u0131m o g\u00fcn, o g\u00fcn\u00fcn ax\u015fam\u0131, “Karvansara\u201d restoran\u0131 v\u0259 Anar\u0131n ya\u015farm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259ri yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. O q\u0259fil g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259b\u0259bi n\u0259ymi\u015f g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n: b\u0259lk\u0259, el\u0259 orda \u2013 o restorandaca Anar\u0131n (b\u0259lk\u0259, \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259rsiz!) \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 dam\u0131bm\u0131\u015f ki, m\u0259nd\u0259n \u0259l\u0259k\u00e7inin q\u0131l ver\u0259ni \u00e7\u0131xmayacaq.<\/p>\n\n\n\n AYB-nin o vaxtk\u0131 ilk qurultay\u0131ndaca b\u0259yanat verib v\u0259zif\u0259d\u0259n uzaqla\u015fd\u0131m v\u0259 az sonra t\u0259\u015fkilat\u0131n \u00fczvl\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xma\u011f\u0131 q\u0259rara ald\u0131m. 1991-ci ilin fevral ay\u0131nda Anara \u2013 sur\u0259tini indi d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 saxlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u2014 bir c\u00fcml\u0259d\u0259n ibar\u0259t \u0259riz\u0259 yazd\u0131m: “Getdikc\u0259 daha \u00e7ox iyl\u0259nm\u0259kd\u0259 olan v\u0259 iyl\u0259ndikc\u0259 daha \u00e7ox \u00fcfun\u0259t sa\u00e7an bir t\u0259\u015fkilat\u0131n \u00fczv\u00fc olma\u011f\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259vi m\u0259suliyy\u0259tind\u0259n qurtarmaq m\u0259qs\u0259dil\u0259 Siz\u0259 m\u00fcraci\u0259t ed\u0259r\u0259k, m\u0259ni bu t\u0259\u015fkilat\u0131n \u00fczvl\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n azad etm\u0259nizi xahi\u015f edir\u0259m\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n (D\u00fcnyada el\u0259 bir m\u0259tl\u0259b yoxdur ki, onu bir c\u00fcml\u0259d\u0259 dem\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmas\u0131n).<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u018friz\u0259ni katib\u0259y\u0259 verib getdim. O vaxtdan ta indiy\u0259c\u0259n n\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 o idar\u0259nin qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7m\u0131\u015fam, n\u0259 d\u0259 AYB-nin h\u0259r hans\u0131 bir t\u0259dbirind\u0259 i\u015ftirak el\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. O \u00e7a\u011fdan bu \u00e7a\u011facan m\u0259nim AYB-y\u0259 v\u0259 Anara qar\u015f\u0131 “x\u0259yan\u0259tim\u201d yaln\u0131z bundan ibar\u0259t olub ki, on ill\u0259rl\u0259 f\u0259al \u00fczv\u00fc oldu\u011fum bir t\u0259\u015fkilat\u0131n sonku durumuna m\u0259tbuatda ara-s\u0131ra k\u0259skin m\u00fcnasib\u0259t bildirmi\u015f\u0259m. Ba\u015fqa s\u00f6zl\u0259: bir vaxt o bir c\u00fcml\u0259lik \u0259riz\u0259d\u0259 yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 sonralar bir n\u00f6v x\u0131rdalama\u011fa, a\u00e7ma\u011fa, izah el\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n O bir c\u00fcml\u0259lik \u0259riz\u0259 is\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259l \u00f6ld\u00fc, sonra dirildi. O \u0259riz\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259z bir t\u0259sad\u00fcf diriltdi. O t\u0259sad\u00fcf\u00fcn bir ad\u0131 “Da\u015f yuxular\u201d idi, o biri ad\u0131na y\u0259qin ki, F\u00dcRS\u018fT d\u0259 dem\u0259k olard\u0131. Onu t\u0259xmin\u0259n 10 il bundan \u0259vv\u0259l “dostlar\u0131ma\u201d m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm verdim. Ax\u0131 m\u0259n n\u0259 bil\u0259ydim ki, bu f\u00fcrs\u0259ti \u00e7oxdan g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259nl\u0259r varm\u0131\u015f!<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00d6lk\u0259nin dili s\u00f6z, \u0259li q\u0259l\u0259m tutanlar\u0131n\u0131n “Da\u015f yuxular\u201d bar\u0259d\u0259 dedikl\u0259ri, yazd\u0131qlar\u0131 v\u0259 yazd\u0131rd\u0131qlar\u0131 \u0259s\u0259rin tam m\u0259tnind\u0259n b\u0259lk\u0259 be\u015f d\u0259f\u0259 \u00e7ox olar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fcn “Da\u015f yuxular\u201da alovlu nifr\u0259tini \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r “satq\u0131n\u201d, “xain\u201d, “nankor\u201d, “k\u00fcta\u011f\u0131l\u201d v\u0259 sair spesifik KQB terminl\u0259ri il\u0259 bildir\u0259n q\u0259l\u0259m \u0259hli son vaxtlar \u0259s\u0259rin b\u0259dii c\u0259h\u0259td\u0259n tam yarars\u0131z olma\u011f\u0131na diqq\u0259t \u00e7\u0259km\u0259yi n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 daha \u00e7ox laz\u0131m bilir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n M\u0259ml\u0259k\u0259tin t\u0259kc\u0259 yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131 deyil, \u00e7oxsayl\u0131 v\u0259 \u00e7ox\u00fczl\u00fc siyas\u0259t\u00e7il\u0259ri d\u0259 “Da\u015f yuxular\u201d\u0131n b\u0259dii c\u0259h\u0259td\u0259n xalis r\u00fcsvay\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q oldu\u011funu mill\u0259tin n\u0259z\u0259r-diqq\u0259tin\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131rma\u011f\u0131 \u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 borc bilirl\u0259r. \u018fsl b\u0259dii \u0259s\u0259ri hans\u0131 m\u00f6vzuda v\u0259 nec\u0259 yazmaq bar\u0259d\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 verdikl\u0259ri d\u0259y\u0259rli m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259tl\u0259rl\u0259 mill\u0259tin siyasi m\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259tini m\u0259har\u0259tl\u0259 n\u00fcmayi\u015f etdirirl\u0259r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00d6lk\u0259nin “\u0130tkin g\u0259lin\u201d v\u0259 “Be\u015fm\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259li evin alt\u0131nc\u0131 m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259si\u201dnd\u0259n savay\u0131 he\u00e7 bir \u0259s\u0259r ad\u0131 e\u015fitm\u0259y\u0259n \u00e7oxsayl\u0131 dov\u011fa bulayanlar\u0131 v\u0259 dolma sar\u0131yanlar\u0131 da art\u0131q yax\u015f\u0131 bilir ki, \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n minillik tarixind\u0259 “Da\u015f yuxular\u201ddan z\u0259if b\u0259dii \u0259s\u0259r he\u00e7 vaxt olmay\u0131b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Siyas\u0259t\u00e7il\u0259r v\u0259 dolma sar\u0131yanlarla i\u015fim yoxdur. Ancaq \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n \u0259liq\u0259l\u0259mli cang\u00fcd\u0259nl\u0259rin\u0259 bir-iki sual\u0131m var:<\/p>\n\n\n\n Birinci: <\/em><\/strong>d\u00fcnyan\u0131n tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f \u0259d\u0259biyyat m\u0259rk\u0259zl\u0259rind\u0259n biri say\u0131lan Moskvan\u0131n “Drujba Narodov\u201d kimi n\u00fcfuzlu \u0259d\u0259bi n\u0259\u015fri n\u0259 vaxtdan b\u0259ri b\u0259dii c\u0259h\u0259td\u0259n z\u0259if \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259r \u00e7ap etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131b?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0130kinci:<\/em><\/strong>\u00a0Rusiyan\u0131n Andrey Bitov, Viktor Yerofeyev, Lev Anninski, Aleksandr Arxangelski, Sergey Kaledin, Alla Lat\u0131nina, Boris Akunin kimi d\u00fcnyada tan\u0131nan vicdanl\u0131 s\u00f6z sahibl\u0259rini “b\u0259dii d\u0259y\u0259ri s\u0131f\u0131r\u201d olan \u0259d\u0259bi m\u0259tn bar\u0259d\u0259 m\u00fcsb\u0259t r\u0259y s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 kim vadar edib?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc: <\/em><\/strong>\u00c7ingiz H\u00fcseynov \u0259s\u0259ri “estetik \u015fedevr\u201d, R\u00fcst\u0259m \u0130mbrahimb\u0259yov “\u0259sl yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 m\u0259har\u0259ti\u201d adland\u0131r\u0131b. Bu iki b\u00f6y\u00fck az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131n\u0131n s\u00f6z\u00fc bizim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn n\u0259 vaxtdan b\u0259ri bu q\u0259d\u0259r e\u015fidilm\u0259z olub?<\/p>\n\n\n\n D\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc:\u00a0<\/em><\/strong>“Da\u015f yuxular\u201d\u0131, m\u0259hz b\u0259dii \u0259s\u0259r kimi, y\u00fcks\u0259k qiym\u0259tl\u0259ndir\u0259n ba\u015fqa bir m\u00f6ht\u0259\u015f\u0259m az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131 \u2013 AB\u015e-nin Corc Meyson Universitetind\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan professor-doktor Mikay\u0131l M\u0259mm\u0259dov.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Amerikal\u0131 h\u0259myerlimiz yaz\u0131r: “Bu roman h\u0259r hans\u0131 ideologiyan\u0131n do\u011fru, yaxud yalan oldu\u011funu t\u0259sdiql\u0259m\u0259k m\u0259qs\u0259di da\u015f\u0131m\u0131r. \u018fs\u0259r milli v\u0259 tarixi m\u0259nsubiyy\u0259tind\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 olmayaraq, insana v\u0259 insanl\u0131\u011fa m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259ti t\u0259r\u0259nn\u00fcm edir. Bu yerd\u0259 \u018fkr\u0259m \u018fylisli \u0259sl yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 olma\u011f\u0131n aktual n\u00fcmun\u0259sini g\u00f6st\u0259rir\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00c7oxdan xaricd\u0259 ya\u015fayan bu az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131 alimin Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131, m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n, xalq yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 \u00c7ingiz Abdullayevd\u0259n az sevdiyini dem\u0259y\u0259 h\u0259r hans\u0131 bir \u0259sas varm\u0131?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00d6y\u00fcnm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yox, m\u0259lumat \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dem\u0259liy\u0259m ki, “Da\u015f yuxular\u201d Almaniyada, Finlandiyada, Latviyada, \u0130taliyada, AB\u015e-d\u0259, Argentinada, \u00c7exiyada, Slovakiyada, Rum\u0131niyada, G\u00fcrc\u00fcstanda v\u0259 Erm\u0259nistanda ayr\u0131ca kitab \u015f\u0259klind\u0259 n\u0259\u015fr edilib v\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn bu \u00f6lk\u0259l\u0259rin n\u00fcfuzlu \u0259d\u0259bi orqanlar\u0131nda, \u00fcst\u0259lik \u0130ngilt\u0259r\u0259nin \u0259n populyar d\u00f6vr\u00fc \u0259d\u0259bi n\u0259\u015frl\u0259rind\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259s\u0259rin m\u0259hz b\u0259dii aspektl\u0259ri bar\u0259d\u0259 \u00e7ox sayda m\u0259qal\u0259 v\u0259 m\u00fcsahib\u0259 d\u0259rc edilib.<\/p>\n\n\n\n AB\u015e-nin \u0259n populyar \u0259d\u0259bi n\u0259\u015frl\u0259rind\u0259 “Da\u015f yuxular\u201d haqq\u0131nda b\u0259lk\u0259 20-d\u0259n \u00e7ox m\u00fc\u0259llifin yaz\u0131s\u0131 \u00e7ap olunub. V\u0259 bu m\u00fc\u0259llifl\u0259rin b\u00f6y\u00fck \u0259ks\u0259riyy\u0259ti siyas\u0259t\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fan insanlar deyil, AB\u015e-nin m\u00fcxt\u0259lif universitetl\u0259rinin s\u0131ravi m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259ri, professorlar\u0131, filoloq aliml\u0259ridirl\u0259r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n, amerikal\u0131 professor, Rayan K. Streyder b\u00f6y\u00fck h\u0259cmli m\u0259qal\u0259sind\u0259 yaz\u0131r: “M\u0259n \u00f6z d\u0259rs proqram\u0131ma Bulqakov, Zo\u015f\u015fenko, Soljenits\u0131n v\u0259 Markesl\u0259 yana\u015f\u0131 \u018fylislini d\u0259 daxil etm\u0259yi planla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131ram\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Amerikal\u0131 professorun bu m\u0259qal\u0259si, 4-5 il \u0259vv\u0259l, bizd\u0259 \u2013 “Kontakt\u201d sayt\u0131nda da d\u0259rc edilib. Maraqlananlar tap\u0131b oxuya bil\u0259r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Bratislava Universitetinin Beyn\u0259lxalq \u0259laq\u0259l\u0259r fak\u00fclt\u0259si \u0259s\u0259ri 2014-c\u00fc ilin \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 b\u0259dii \u0259s\u0259ri m\u00fckafat\u0131na layiq g\u00f6r\u00fcb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n AB\u015e-nin, Almaniyan\u0131n, \u0130sve\u00e7r\u0259nin bir ne\u00e7\u0259 t\u0259hsil m\u00fc\u0259ssis\u0259sind\u0259, Praqan\u0131n Havel ad\u0131na M\u0259rk\u0259zi Kitabxanas\u0131nda v\u0259 d\u00fcnyan\u0131n onlarla dig\u0259r m\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t ocaqlar\u0131nda “Da\u015f yuxular\u201d\u0131n publik m\u00fczakir\u0259l\u0259ri ke\u00e7irilib.<\/p>\n\n\n\n AB\u015e-nin populyar “World Literature Today\u201d \u0259d\u0259bi n\u0259\u015fri “Da\u015f yuxular\u201d\u0131 2018-ci ilin be\u015f \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 kitab\u0131ndan biri kimi qiym\u0259tl\u0259ndirib.<\/p>\n\n\n\n “Da\u015f yuxular\u201d\u0131n beyn\u0259lxalq kitab m\u00fcsabiq\u0259sin\u0259 t\u0259qdim olunan alman n\u0259\u015fri h\u0259min m\u00fcsabiq\u0259d\u0259 \u00f6nc\u00fcl yerl\u0259rd\u0259n birini tutub.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Hindistanl\u0131 yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131, publisist, esseist Kapil Kommireddi 2023-c\u00fc ild\u0259 oxudu\u011fu \u0259n maraql\u0131 kitablar\u0131n s\u0131ras\u0131nda “Da\u015f yuxular\u201d\u0131n da ad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0130taliyan\u0131n Milan \u015f\u0259h\u0259rind\u0259ki “Haqq yol\u00e7ular\u0131 park\u0131\u201dnda (rusca: “\u041f\u0430\u0440\u043a \u041f\u0440\u0430\u0432\u0435\u0434\u043d\u0438\u043a\u043e\u0432\u201d) m\u0259nim ad\u0131ma da xatir\u0259 l\u00f6vh\u0259si qoyulub v\u0259 \u015f\u0259r\u0259fim\u0259 a\u011fac \u0259kilib.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Bratislava Universitetinin filoloji fak\u00fclt\u0259sinin t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259si Patrisiya Patselitova “Da\u015f yuxular\u201d m\u00f6vzusunda yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 dissertasiyaya g\u00f6r\u0259 magistr d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259si al\u0131b. Bu \u0259s\u0259ri oxuyandan sonra Az\u0259rbaycan \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u0131 il\u0259 ciddi maraqlanma\u011fa ba\u015flayan yaponiyal\u0131 t\u0259dqiqat\u00e7\u0131-filoloq Yorika Tsutsumi m\u0259nim b\u00fct\u00fcn yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 \u0259hat\u0259 ed\u0259n monoqrafiya yazma\u011f\u0131 laz\u0131m bilib. \u018fd\u0259biyyat\u0131m\u0131z haqq\u0131nda daha geni\u015f m\u0259lumat toplamaq m\u0259qs\u0259dil\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 d\u0259f\u0259 Bak\u0131da olub, bir ne\u00e7\u0259 tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131m\u0131zla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb. Ke\u00e7\u0259n ilin yay\u0131nda \u018fylis\u0259 s\u0259f\u0259r el\u0259yib, oradak\u0131 evim\u0259 ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259kib. Az vaxtda dilimizi \u00f6yr\u0259n\u0259 bilib. \u0130ndi Tokiodan m\u0259n\u0259 Az\u0259rbaycan dilind\u0259 tez-tez m\u0259ktub yaz\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Bunlar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131 faktd\u0131r. Bu faktlar\u0131n h\u0259r birini asanca yoxlamaq olar. V\u0259 m\u0259nim bu s\u00f6hb\u0259ti salmaqda m\u0259qs\u0259dim \u0259s\u0259rd\u0259n naraz\u0131 qalanlar\u0131 fikrind\u0259n d\u00f6nd\u0259rm\u0259k deyil. H\u0259r k\u0259sin fikrin\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259tim var. Ancaq h\u0259r k\u0259s bilm\u0259lidir ki, m\u0259nim d\u0259 \u00f6z fikrim ola bil\u0259r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n M\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, “Da\u015f yuxular\u201da s\u0131rf siyasi yana\u015fma k\u00f6k\u00fcnd\u0259n yanl\u0131\u015fd\u0131r, q\u0259r\u0259zlidir, pis vaxt\u0131n, qorxunc zaman\u0131n sifari\u015fidir. H\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 siyasi don geydirm\u0259k h\u0259v\u0259skarlar\u0131n\u0131n say\u0131 indi h\u0259r vaxt oldu\u011fundan \u00e7ox olsa da, “Da\u015f yuxular\u201d\u0131n m\u0259hz b\u0259dii t\u0259f\u0259kk\u00fcr\u00fcn m\u0259hsulu oldu\u011funu danmaq faydas\u0131zd\u0131r. He\u00e7 olmasa ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ki, \u0259s\u0259rin \u0259n t\u0259sirli s\u0259hif\u0259l\u0259ri ba\u015f q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131n psixoloji sars\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131na, onun k\u00f6vr\u0259k xatir\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 dolu u\u015faql\u0131q v\u0259 ilk g\u0259nclik ill\u0259rin\u0259 h\u0259sr olunub. Bu \u0259s\u0259r m\u0259n\u0259viyyats\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n h\u0259yat t\u0259rzi kimi q\u0259bul edildiyi bir c\u0259miyy\u0259td\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259viyyats\u0131z ya\u015faya bilm\u0259y\u0259n insan\u0131n tale faci\u0259sidir. Ax\u0131 insan t\u0259kc\u0259 ham\u0131n\u0131n ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 maddi d\u00fcnyada ya\u015fam\u0131r. Onun yaln\u0131z \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 m\u0259xsus, m\u0259n\u0259vi d\u00fcnyas\u0131 da var. Bunu bilm\u0259d\u0259n, ya bilm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n \u0259s\u0259r\u0259 v\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259llif\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 h\u00f6km y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u0259nl\u0259r, m\u0259nc\u0259, ham\u0131l\u0131qla m\u0259n\u0259vi yadda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 itirmi\u015f adamlard\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n 6.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Deyirl\u0259r, yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259r \u0259s\u0259ri onun bir \u00f6vlad\u0131d\u0131r v\u0259 ata \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259r bir \u00f6vlad eyni q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259zizdir. Bo\u015f s\u00f6zd\u00fcr, \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fck s\u00f6zd\u00fcr. Bekara yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n s\u00f6z\u00fcd\u00fcr. H\u0259qiqi yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259s\u0259r \u00f6vlad deyil, H\u018fYATDIR!<\/p>\n\n\n\n M\u0259n bel\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131n arzusunda olmu\u015famm\u0131? Bilmir\u0259m. Taled\u0259n yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 h\u0259yat\u0131 ya\u015fama\u011fa m\u0259hkum edil\u0259nl\u0259rin b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 he\u00e7 biri bunu bilmir. \u00c7\u00fcnki, \u0259slin\u0259 qalsa, layiqinc\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcl\u0259n he\u00e7 bir i\u015f asan deyil. Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n “yuxusuz gec\u0259l\u0259ri\u201d bar\u0259d\u0259ki \u00e7eyn\u0259nmi\u015f deyimin d\u0259 \u015f\u0259xs\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 he\u00e7 bir d\u0259xli yoxdur. M\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n \u0259n xo\u015fb\u0259xt vaxtlar\u0131 da el\u0259 m\u0259hz o yuxusuz gec\u0259l\u0259rdir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m hekay\u0259 v\u0259 povestl\u0259rin he\u00e7 birini q\u00fcsursuz hesab el\u0259mir\u0259m. M\u0259nd\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc onlar\u0131n b\u0259zisi \u00e7ox q\u00fcsurlu, b\u0259zisi az q\u00fcsurludur. Ancaq \u0259n q\u00fcsurlu sayd\u0131\u011f\u0131m yaz\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131n da el\u0259 yerl\u0259ri var ki, o yerl\u0259ri h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 l\u0259zz\u0259tl\u0259 oxuya bilir\u0259m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n S\u00f6z\u00fcn h\u0259rfi m\u0259nas\u0131nda: b\u0259z\u0259n g\u00fcl\u0259-g\u00fcl\u0259, b\u0259z\u0259n a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259rin h\u0259r birind\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n m\u00fctl\u0259q n\u0259s\u0259 var. B\u0259zi \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259rimins\u0259 ba\u015f q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131 xalis \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n M\u0259n b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 burax\u0131b ged\u0259rdim. Bu yerd\u0259 Moskva dad\u0131ma \u00e7at\u0131b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0130lk kitab\u0131m “Gilas a\u011fac\u0131\u201d Qlavlitd\u0259 il yar\u0131m yat\u0131b qal\u0131b. O kitabdak\u0131 hekay\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n birinin Moskvada \u00e7ap edildiyi m\u0259lum olandan sonra kitab\u0131n n\u0259\u015frin\u0259 d\u0259rhal icaz\u0259 verildi. Eyni senzura s\u00fcr\u00fcnd\u00fcrm\u0259\u00e7iliyi “Adamlar v\u0259 a\u011faclar\u201d\u0131n da ba\u015f\u0131na g\u0259lib. \u018fs\u0259rin birinci hiss\u0259si Moskvan\u0131n “Molodaya qvardiya\u201d n\u0259\u015friyyat\u0131nda \u00e7ap edildikd\u0259n sonra onun Bak\u0131da da n\u0259\u015fr edilm\u0259si m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olub.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Birinci kitab\u0131ma p\u0259l vuran senzorun m\u0259n\u0259 o vaxt dedikl\u0259ri h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi yad\u0131mdad\u0131r: “Bu n\u0259 dildi, s\u0259n yaz\u0131rsan. Bu dild\u0259 m\u0259n d\u0259 yazaram…\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Dem\u0259li, m\u0259nim yaz\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131n dili, h\u0259l\u0259 ilk kitab\u0131mda, o vaxt\u0131n kitab dilind\u0259n f\u0259rql\u0259nirmi\u015f.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Yazd\u0131qlar\u0131m\u0131n he\u00e7 birini k\u00f6hn\u0259lmi\u015f hesab el\u0259mir\u0259m. \u00c7\u00fcnki onlar\u0131n h\u0259r birind\u0259 insan taleyi var. Talel\u0259rin u\u011furlusu da, u\u011fursuzu da olur. Ancaq t\u0259z\u0259si-k\u00f6hn\u0259si olmur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u018fylisd\u0259n olmasayd\u0131m, yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 ola bil\u0259rdimmi? B\u0259lk\u0259 \u2013 h\u0259, b\u0259lk\u0259 \u2013 yox. Ancaq bunu d\u00f6n\u0259-d\u00f6n\u0259 demi\u015f\u0259m ki, \u018fylis m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn co\u011frafi m\u0259kan deyil. O m\u0259nim ruhi varl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n \u015f\u0259rti m\u0259kan\u0131, \u00fcr\u0259yimin paytaxt\u0131d\u0131r. Onun da\u011f-da\u015f\u0131n\u0131 Allah yaratm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yaratmaq m\u0259n\u0259 qism\u0259t oldu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n 7.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Yaz\u0131m\u0131n \u0259vv\u0259lin\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131ram: DUZ v\u0259 SUP \u0259hvalat\u0131na.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Ha\u00e7ansa, hardasa oxumu\u015fdum ki, qocal\u0131\u011f\u0131nda Lev Tolstoy yadda\u015fla \u00e7ox \u0259ll\u0259\u015firmi\u015f. Hu\u015fsuzlu\u011fun qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 almaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn c\u00fcrb\u0259c\u00fcr vasit\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 \u0259l at\u0131rm\u0131\u015f. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n, gec\u0259l\u0259r yatmazdan \u0259vv\u0259l bir ne\u00e7\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259siz s\u00f6z \u0259zb\u0259rl\u0259yib, s\u0259h\u0259r yuxudan duranda o s\u00f6zl\u0259ri yad\u0131na salma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Duz s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn q\u0259fil qeyb oldu\u011fu o g\u00fcn Tolstoyun bu metodunu m\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0131naqdan \u00e7\u0131xarma\u011f\u0131 q\u0259rara ald\u0131m. Gec\u0259 yata\u011fa uzananda biri-birin\u0259 d\u0259xli olmayan be\u015f s\u00f6z se\u00e7ib, o s\u00f6zl\u0259ri, yuxuya ged\u0259n\u0259c\u0259n, d\u00f6n\u0259-d\u00f6n\u0259 t\u0259krarlad\u0131m. S\u0259h\u0259r yuxudan ay\u0131landa o be\u015f s\u00f6zd\u0259n c\u0259mi birc\u0259sini yad\u0131ma sala bildim: \u00c7\u0130NAR.<\/p>\n\n\n\n O \u00e7inar\u0131 m\u0259n \u0259km\u0259mi\u015fdim. Ancaq onu \u0259k\u0259n\u0259 ham\u0131dan \u00e7ox m\u0259n r\u0259hm\u0259t vermi\u015fdim. O, \u00e7inar deyildi, t\u0259bi\u0259tin m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259siydi: bir k\u00f6kd\u0259n boy verib ba\u015f qald\u0131rm\u0131\u015f, xatir\u0259l\u0259riml\u0259 dolu, alt\u0131 budaql\u0131 n\u0259h\u0259ng a\u011fac. M\u0259n o evi \u2013 A\u015fa\u011f\u0131 v\u0259 Yuxar\u0131 \u2013 iki \u018fylisin ortas\u0131nda o \u00e7inar\u0131n xatirin\u0259 tikmi\u015fdim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n M\u0259nd\u0259n \u018fylis\u0259 o evd\u0259n v\u0259 \u00e7inardan savay\u0131 ba\u015fqa n\u0259 qald\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n? Bilmir\u0259m. Ancaq bilir\u0259m ki, \u018fylis m\u0259ni, d\u00fcnya durduqca, he\u00e7 vaxt unutmayacaq. Orada axan sular, a\u00e7an \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259r, u\u00e7an qu\u015flar m\u0259ni m\u00fctl\u0259q \u018fylisin yad\u0131na salacaq.<\/p>\n\n\n\n H\u0259l\u0259 d\u00f6rd be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131m olanda \u018fylis\u0259, h\u0259r pay\u0131z, hardansa bir al\u0259m qu\u015f q\u0259l\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Ad\u0131na “q\u0131r\u011f\u0131\u201d dediyimiz o qu\u015flar, g\u00fcnd\u00fczl\u0259r da\u011fda-da\u015fda gizl\u0259n\u0259rdil\u0259r. Ax\u015fam\u00e7a\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 qatar-qatar u\u00e7u\u015fub, u\u015faq kimi oyna\u015fard\u0131lar. Gec\u0259nis\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259r\u0259c\u0259n o \u00e7inar\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda gec\u0259l\u0259y\u0259rdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0130ndi, \u018fylisd\u0259n uzaqda, o \u00e7inar\u0131 h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131na g\u0259tir\u0259nd\u0259 o qu\u015flar h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr.<\/p>\n\n\n\n M\u0259n onlar\u0131n g\u00fcnd\u00fczl\u0259r harda ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmirdim. D\u00fcnyan\u0131n birc\u0259 q\u0131r\u011f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n da ha\u00e7ansa yer\u0259 qondu\u011funu he\u00e7 vaxt g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdim. M\u0259n onlar\u0131 el\u0259c\u0259 \u2013 d\u0259st\u0259 il\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 u\u00e7an, oynayan g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Gec\u0259ni \u00e7inar\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda gec\u0259l\u0259y\u0259n o qu\u015flar ild\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 \u018fylis\u0259 b\u0259lk\u0259 do\u011frudan da u\u00e7ma\u011fa, oynama\u011fa g\u0259lirdil\u0259r: ilin \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131nda, g\u00f6y\u00fcn \u0259n t\u0259miz vaxt\u0131nda… Soyuqlar d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131n q\u0131r\u011f\u0131lar u\u00e7ub gedirdi v\u0259 onlar ged\u0259nd\u0259n sonra da g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fc, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ax\u015famt\u0259r\u0259fi \u2013 el\u0259c\u0259 dumduru \u2013 uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t bo\u015f qal\u0131rd\u0131. V\u0259 o qu\u015flar olmayanda m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, o \u00e7inar onlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 yaman dar\u0131x\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u018flvida, \u00c7\u0130NAR, salamat qal.<\/p>\n\n\n\n H\u0259rd\u0259n m\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 dar\u0131x.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Torpaqlarda s\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u0259zs\u0259n,<\/em>
M\u0259n d\u00f6ns\u0259m d\u0259, s\u0259n d\u00f6nm\u0259zs\u0259n,<\/em>
Ya\u015fa k\u00f6n\u00fcl, ya\u015fa k\u00f6n\u00fcl!<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n
Allah, yol ver gedim, \u0259hd eyl\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.<\/em>
Bu yolu bir d\u0259f\u0259 geri d\u00f6nm\u0259y\u0259<\/em>
B\u0259lk\u0259 milyon d\u0259f\u0259 c\u0259hd eyl\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n
Daha yol getm\u0259y\u0259 yolum qalmay\u0131b.<\/em>
B\u0259sdir, \u00e7ox demi\u015f\u0259m qal\u0131m-qalmay\u0131m? \u2013<\/em>
M\u0259nim o yerl\u0259r\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u0259yim g\u0259lir.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0130\u015f\u0131q g\u00f6rd\u00fcm \u2013 bir balaca boy atd\u0131m.<\/em>
El\u0259 bill\u0259m \u2013 g\u0259ldim, g\u0259zdim, qay\u0131td\u0131m,<\/em>
M\u0259nim o yerl\u0259r\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u0259yim g\u0259lir.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n
D\u00fc\u015fm\u0259nl\u0259rim dostlar\u0131mdan \u00e7oxuydu.<\/em>
Qoy desinl\u0259r, he\u00e7 \u0259vv\u0259ld\u0259n yoxuydu \u2013<\/em>
M\u0259nim o yerl\u0259r\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u0259yim g\u0259lir.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n
“Domsovet”in g\u00f6rd\u00fcm, d\u0259nizin g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.<\/em>
Anar\u0131n, M\u00f6vludun, Ramizin g\u00f6rd\u00fcm…<\/em>
M\u0259nim o yerl\u0259r\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u0259yim g\u0259lir.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n
D\u00fcnya il\u0259 c\u0259ngi-cida edirdim.<\/em>
He\u00e7 bilm\u0259dim \u2013 n\u0259 tapd\u0131m, n\u0259 itirdim.<\/em>
M\u0259nim o yerl\u0259r\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u0259yim g\u0259lir.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u015eeytan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131, insan d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc d\u0259y\u0259rd\u0259n.<\/em>
\u015eairl\u0259ri \u015f\u0259r qaynadan bu yerd\u0259n,<\/em>
M\u0259nim o yerl\u0259r\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u0259yim g\u0259lir.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n
Na\u015f\u0259xsini g\u00f6rd\u00fcm, \u015f\u0259xsini g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.<\/em>
\u015eeytan\u0131n min c\u00fcr\u0259 r\u0259qsini g\u00f6rd\u00fcm,<\/em>
M\u0259nim o yerl\u0259r\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u0259yim g\u0259lir.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n
D\u0259yyuslar\u0131n ucal\u0131\u011f\u0131n da g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.<\/em>
Dostlar\u0131 da dar g\u00fcnd\u0259 c\u0131nda g\u00f6rd\u00fcm,<\/em>
M\u0259nim o yerl\u0259r\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u0259yim g\u0259lir.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n
G\u00f6rd\u00fcm ki, bir miskin oyundu d\u00fcnya.<\/em>
\u0130ndi bir hava \u00e7al \u2013 toyumdu, d\u00fcnya!<\/em>
M\u0259nim o yerl\u0259r\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u0259yim g\u0259lir.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131-ya\u011fmuru, seli \u018fylisin.<\/em>
\u0130liyimd\u0259 \u0259sir yeli \u018fylisin \u2013<\/em>
M\u0259nim o yerl\u0259r\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u0259yim g\u0259lir.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ka\u015f ki, bu gedi\u015fl\u0259 qalayd\u0131m, Allah.<\/em>
Yor\u011fun \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259 bir a\u011fac altda,<\/em>
Oturub bir layla \u00e7alayd\u0131m, Allah.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yand\u0131\u011f\u0131m b\u0259simdir, s\u00f6nm\u0259yim g\u0259lir.<\/em>
M\u0259ni qald\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131n o pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259<\/em>
S\u0259nin h\u00fczuruna enm\u0259yim g\u0259lir.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n
M\u0259nim o yerl\u0259r\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u0259yim g\u0259lir.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n
Oturub bir layla \u00e7alayd\u0131m, Allah.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n