\n Biz\u0259 \u201ch\u0259s\u0259d aparan\u201d d\u00fcnya bir yana, bu aksiyalar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fcr ax\u0131… Ay\u0131b deyilmi, c\u0259nablar?\n<\/p>\n
\n Bac\u0131m g\u0259lin k\u00f6\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259 anam\u0131n quca\u011f\u0131nda olmu\u015fam. Bu yax\u0131nlara q\u0259d\u0259r onu \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 xala, bibi s\u0259viyy\u0259sind\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm v\u0259 d\u0259rhal da anam\u0131n eynisi olan z\u0259rif cizgil\u0259rini xatr\u0131lay\u0131b \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc q\u0131nama\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131m. Onun m\u0259n\u0259 m\u00fcnasib\u0259ti d\u0259 b\u0259lk\u0259 bac\u0131l\u0131qdan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b \u201canas\u0131n\u0131n q\u0131z\u0131\u201d kimi bir halda olub. Bir ild\u0259n sonra \u00f6z\u00fc ana kimi ail\u0259sin\u0259, k\u00f6rp\u0259sin\u0259 h\u0259sr olunan g\u0259lin xeyla\u011f\u0131ndan bundan art\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ummaq da insafs\u0131zl\u0131qd\u0131. Bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rin az sonra ke\u00e7\u0259c\u0259yim m\u0259tl\u0259b\u0259 d\u0259xli olub-olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmir\u0259m. Bildiyim odur ki, m\u0259n o m\u0259tl\u0259b\u0259 ke\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7ox qorxuram v\u0259 bu giri\u015f d\u0259 y\u0259qin o m\u0259tl\u0259b\u0259 ged\u0259n yolu uzatmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnd\u00fcr…\n<\/p>\n
\n \u0130lki R\u0259hil\u0259 il\u0259 t\u0259xmin\u0259n ya\u015f\u0131d idik, n\u00f6vb\u0259ti u\u015faqlar da \u00fcst\u0259c\u0259r do\u011fulmu\u015fdular. Onlara ged\u0259nd\u0259 yeddi u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fc kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Ota\u011f\u0131n h\u0259r yerini tutan d\u00f6\u015f\u0259kl\u0259rin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki yerimizd\u0259 uzun zaman yuxuya getm\u0259yib ordan-burdan dan\u0131\u015fard\u0131q. Bir gec\u0259 yast\u0131\u011fa dirs\u0259kl\u0259nib q\u0131z\u011f\u0131n \u201cs\u00f6hb\u0259t etdiyimiz\u201d yerd\u0259 bird\u0259n qolumu sanki ar\u0131 vurdu, dik at\u0131ld\u0131m. Ham\u0131 qalx\u0131b yerinin i\u00e7ind\u0259 oturdu. R\u0259hil\u0259 qolumun k\u00f6k\u00fcn\u0259 bax\u0131b arxa t\u0259r\u0259fimd\u0259 yatan ki\u00e7ik Xanlar\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kdiyi yor\u011fan\u0131 qald\u0131rd\u0131. U\u015faq \u00fcrk\u0259k-\u00fcrk\u0259k m\u0259ni s\u00fcz\u00fcb bac\u0131s\u0131na p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131 ki, \u201cxalan\u0131n qolu bombad\u0131\u201d. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, qolumdak\u0131 yanp\u00f6rt\u00fc vurulmu\u015f peyv\u0259ndin \u00e7\u00f6k\u0259k \u201cnax\u0131\u015f\u0131\u201d u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n xo\u015funa g\u0259libmi\u015f, oran\u0131 \u201cyoxlamaq\u201d ist\u0259yib. K\u00f6rp\u0259, nazik d\u0131rnaqlar\u0131n yeri he\u00e7 a\u011fr\u0131m\u0131rd\u0131 da. Sad\u0259c\u0259 yum\u015faq nahiy\u0259 oldu\u011funa q\u0259fil t\u0259masdan s\u0259ks\u0259nmi\u015fdim. O b\u0259xt\u0259v\u0259r gec\u0259 balaca, sevimli varl\u0131\u011f\u0131 q\u0131d\u0131qlay\u0131b g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n ya\u015f g\u0259l\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00fcld\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Bils\u0259ydim o ki\u00e7ik \u015f\u0259n erizod bir \u00f6m\u00fcr da\u015f\u0131yaca\u011f\u0131m \u0259n k\u0259d\u0259rli xatir\u0259 olacaq, o oyunu s\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r uzadard\u0131m…\n<\/p>\n
\n \u0130ll\u0259r ke\u00e7di, d\u00f6vran d\u0259yi\u015fdi, ilk g\u0259ncliyi art\u0131q qocalm\u0131\u015f Qaraba\u011f m\u00fcharib\u0259sin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n Xanlar\u0131 da tay-tu\u015flar\u0131 kimi qanl\u0131 doxsan \u00fc\u00e7-doxsan d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc ill\u0259rin d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f zonas\u0131na \u0259sg\u0259r apard\u0131lar. Son d\u0259f\u0259 ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 y\u00fcng\u00fcl yaralan\u0131bm\u0131\u015f. Do\u011fmalar\u0131ndan \u201ctibbi yard\u0131m\u201d alanda t\u0259sad\u00fcf\u0259n boynundan as\u0131l\u0131 ad\u0131-soyad\u0131 yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f d\u0259mir ni\u015fan (\u201cbirka\u201d) g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr. H\u0259y\u0259canlan\u0131b soru\u015furlar, \u201cel\u0259-bel\u0259 \u015feydir, qay\u0131danda ba\u015fa salaram\u201d, – deyir. O gedi\u015fd\u0259n sonra x\u0259b\u0259r-\u0259t\u0259rsiz bir aydan art\u0131q m\u00fcdd\u0259t ke\u00e7ir, o m\u00fcdd\u0259td\u0259 \u00e7ox qap\u0131lara kimliyi o \u201cel\u0259-bel\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259\u201d tan\u0131nan ne\u00e7\u0259-ne\u00e7\u0259 o\u011fullar g\u0259tirirl\u0259r.\n<\/p>\n
\n Yer\u0259-g\u00f6y\u0259 s\u0131\u011fmayan nigaran bac\u0131m ismar\u0131c yollayana q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 yetkilil\u0259rd\u0259n F\u00fczuli-A\u011fdam t\u0259r\u0259fl\u0259ri soru\u015furdum. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 pe\u015f\u0259 suallar\u0131na yozub a\u00e7\u0131qca \u201coralarda itki \u00e7oxdur\u201d deyirdil\u0259r. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 peyv\u0259ndli sa\u011f qolum k\u00f6k\u00fcnd\u0259n q\u0131r\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131, amma susub a\u011fr\u0131m\u0131 i\u00e7im\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kirdim. Yerli q\u0259zetin x\u0259tti il\u0259 h\u0259r h\u0259ft\u0259 bir-iki d\u0259f\u0259 getdiyim \u015f\u0259hid yaslar\u0131nda evl\u0259r bac\u0131mgilin evl\u0259rin\u0259, analar bac\u0131ma ox\u015fad\u0131qca ikiqat g\u00f6yn\u0259yirdim. H\u0259r yeni tabutdan sonra \u201cxalas\u0131 tapacaq\u201d dey\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00fcv\u0259n\u0259n anam\u0131n-bac\u0131m\u0131n yan\u0131nda ki\u00e7ilib toza d\u00f6n\u00fcrd\u00fcm.\n<\/p>\n
\n V\u0259 bir g\u00fcn b\u00f6y\u00fck bac\u0131m\u0131n aln\u0131ndan vurulmu\u015f ki\u00e7ik o\u011flu b\u00fct\u00fcn suallara, \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 son qoyaraq anas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259lik g\u0259ldi. Daha odun-alovun i\u00e7in\u0259 qay\u0131tmay\u0131b silah s\u0259sind\u0259n, \u00f6l\u00fcm t\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259sind\u0259n uzaq axar-baxarl\u0131 k\u0259ndinin bir gu\u015f\u0259sind\u0259 \u0259b\u0259di dinc\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kdi. Yor\u011fun, yaral\u0131 can\u0131n\u0131 do\u011fulub-b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcy\u00fc torpa\u011fa \u0259man\u0259t edib d\u0259rin bir yuxuya ged\u0259c\u0259kdi. O q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259rin ki, he\u00e7 anas\u0131n\u0131n ah-nal\u0259sin\u0259, s\u00f6zl\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fcn h\u0259sr\u0259t \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131\u015f\u0131na oyanmayacaqd\u0131…\n<\/p>\n
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\n Bu g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259 bac\u0131ma d\u0259ym\u0259y\u0259 getdim. N\u0259v\u0259sinin \u0259sg\u0259rlikd\u0259n qay\u0131tmas\u0131 il\u0259 \u00fcst-\u00fcst\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n o s\u0259f\u0259rd\u0259 \u201cqan pulu\u201d s\u00f6hb\u0259ti d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259sin dey\u0259 yolboyu allaha yalvarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Di g\u0259l ki, \u0259sg\u0259r g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259r yaln\u0131z bu bar\u0259d\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar. He\u00e7 n\u0259 e\u015fitm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc bac\u0131ma k\u00f6kl\u0259dim…\n<\/p>\n
\n \u0130nfarkta, iflic\u0259 \u0259sir d\u00fc\u015fs\u0259 d\u0259, bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n d\u0259rinliyind\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 u\u015faq x\u0259yallar\u0131mdan s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcb g\u0259l\u0259n qo\u00e7aq, g\u00f6z\u0259l g\u0259linl\u0259 z\u0259if ba\u011flar qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Dizin\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259diyi a\u011facs\u0131z art\u0131q add\u0131m ata bilm\u0259y\u0259n, daim diqq\u0259t\u0259 m\u00f6htac \u201cqoca n\u0259n\u0259y\u0259\u201d son zamanlar\u0131nda anama baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131m kimi \u00fcr\u0259kdolusu baxd\u0131m. \u00d6vlad nisgilli bac\u0131m \u00fcst\u0259lik x\u0259st\u0259liyi \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n \u0259m\u0259l\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n borca-x\u0259rc\u0259, yuxusuz gec\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdikl\u0259rinin ara-s\u0131ra dan\u0131\u015fan q\u0259m heyk\u0259liydi. \u0130flicin \u00e7\u0259tinl\u0259\u015fdirdiyi o dan\u0131\u015fmaqlarda \u0259n hamar s\u00f6z Xanlard\u0131, daim dilinin ucundak\u0131 sonbe\u015fik o\u011flan…\n<\/p>\n
\n Ayr\u0131landa arxamca yava\u015fdan s\u0259sl\u0259nib, \u201c\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n mu\u011fayat ol\u201d, dey\u0259nd\u0259 k\u00fcr\u0259yim odland\u0131. \u201cS\u0259n d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 bax!\u201d dey\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. Bac\u0131m \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 baxa bilmir… Ona v\u0259 onun kimi analara baxacaq adamlar\u0131n kredit, kommunal, d\u00fckan-bazar, aptek, g\u00fcnd\u0259lik dolan\u0131\u015f\u0131q borclar\u0131, i\u015fsizlik, qap\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259sdirmi\u015f q\u0131\u015f\u0131n od bahas\u0131na istilik probleml\u0259ri var. H\u0259l\u0259 hesabda olmayan q\u0259fil x\u0259rcl\u0259rd\u0259n, \u0259sass\u0131z c\u0259rim\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n, \u015f\u0259rd\u0259n, b\u00f6htandan da kims\u0259nin s\u0131\u011fortalanmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 des\u0259k, hakimiyy\u0259tin \u015f\u0259hid ail\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 q\u0131y\u0131b verm\u0259diyi m\u0259bl\u0259\u011fl\u0259 yaln\u0131z illik b\u00fcdc\u0259ni ba\u011flamaq olar. Bac\u0131m\u0131n h\u0259sr\u0259tinin iyirmi d\u00f6rd ya\u015f\u0131 var, o\u011flundan d\u00f6rd ya\u015f b\u00f6y\u00fck… O h\u0259sr\u0259tin d\u0259y\u0259ri hans\u0131 tarifl\u0259 hesablanacaq?\n<\/p>\n
\n Yeri g\u0259lmi\u015fk\u0259n…\n<\/p>\n
\n Bu g\u00fcn bac\u0131m sa\u011flam olsayd\u0131 bel\u0259, \u201calm\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z\u201d dey\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259dsiz-s\u00fcbutsuz \u00fcz\u0259 duran d\u0259yyuslardan \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131n haqq\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259l\u0259b ed\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi. \u0130frat m\u00fclayimlik, c\u0259fake\u015flik, \u00f6vlad da\u011flar\u0131 ona t\u0259l\u0259bkar olma\u011f\u0131 unutdurub. Normalda is\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcged\u0259n kompensasiya \u015f\u0259hidl\u0259rin ruhu incidilm\u0259d\u0259n t\u0259l\u0259bsiz, \u015fikay\u0259tsiz b\u00f6y\u00fck ehtiramla onlar\u0131n yax\u0131nlar\u0131na t\u0259qdim edilm\u0259liydi. Sad\u0259c\u0259 xisl\u0259tin\u0259 sadiq iqtidar bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259d\u0259 bel\u0259, \u00e7ar\u0259siz insanlar\u0131 h\u0259ft\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 r\u0259smi qap\u0131larda s\u00fcr\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u00fcb \u0259zm\u0259kd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kinm\u0259di. H\u0259m d\u0259 orta d\u00f6vl\u0259t m\u0259murunun cibx\u0259rcliyi q\u0259d\u0259r bir m\u0259bl\u0259\u011fd\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc. Biz\u0259 \u201ch\u0259s\u0259d aparan\u201d d\u00fcnya bir yana, bu aksiyalar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fcr ax\u0131… Ay\u0131b deyilmi, c\u0259nablar?\n<\/p>\n
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Biz\u0259 \u201ch\u0259s\u0259d aparan\u201d d\u00fcnya bir yana, bu aksiyalar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fcr ax\u0131… Ay\u0131b deyilmi, c\u0259nablar?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":11,"featured_media":80491,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"_sitemap_exclude":false,"_sitemap_priority":"","_sitemap_frequency":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[57],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-192795","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-menim-fikrimce","infinite-scroll-item","generate-columns","tablet-grid-50","mobile-grid-100","grid-parent","grid-33","no-featured-image-padding"],"acf":[],"yoast_head":"\n