\n M\u0259n bu yaz\u0131n\u0131 son ill\u0259rd\u0259 kitaba yaranan bigan\u0259 m\u00fcnasib\u0259t\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 yazd\u0131m. V\u0259 bilir\u0259m ki, kitab\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fc kimi onun bar\u0259sind\u0259 yaz\u0131lan yaz\u0131 da h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259 oxunmayacaq. Amma yen\u0259 kitaba olan sonsuz vicdan borcumun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n s\u00fckutla ke\u00e7\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. Yoxsa ki, lov\u011fal\u0131q olmas\u0131n, \u0259limd\u0259 oxucunun saqq\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 o\u011furlayacaq ba\u015fqa bir m\u00f6vzu vard\u0131.\n<\/p>\n
\n H\u0259r \u015fey g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fc kimi deyil. He\u00e7 oldu\u011fu kimi d\u0259 deyil… Bunun bel\u0259 oldu\u011funu ham\u0131m\u0131z bilirik. Amma yen\u0259 d\u0259 heyr\u0259tl\u0259nir, q\u0131nay\u0131r, haqq qazand\u0131r\u0131r\u0131q. \u0130nsani hissl\u0259rdi… \u018fn d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tlisi hissl\u0259rd\u0259n m\u0259hrum olmaqd\u0131r.\n<\/p>\n
\n B\u00fct\u00fcn t\u0259hsili yaln\u0131z birc\u0259 sinifd\u0259n ibar\u0259t anam harda bir q\u0259zet q\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131, kitab v\u0259r\u0259qi g\u00f6rs\u0259ydi, \u0259linin s\u0131\u011fal\u0131yla \u0259zizl\u0259yib ev\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259rdi. Anam el\u0259 bilirdi ki, \u00fcst\u00fc yaz\u0131l\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn ka\u011f\u0131zlar yaln\u0131z g\u00f6z\u0259l hissl\u0259rd\u0259n \u0259m\u0259l\u0259 g\u0259lib.\n<\/p>\n
\n Bu yayda qona\u011f\u0131m\u0131z olmu\u015f Moskva diplomlu xan\u0131m ocaqdan g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fc qazan\u0131n alt\u0131na \u201cOvod\u201du qoydu. Sonra da heyr\u0259td\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259rimin i\u00e7in\u0259 g\u00fcl\u0259-g\u00fcl\u0259 baxaraq: \u201cFaci\u0259 deyil, indi b\u00fct\u00fcn kitablar internetd\u0259 var\u201d, \u2013 dedi.\n<\/p>\n
\n B\u0259li, faci\u0259 deyil. Etiraf ed\u0259k ki, komediya da deyil. \u018fn az\u0131ndan ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ki, tan\u0131yandan b\u0259ri ruscas\u0131 z\u0259if olan m\u0259n o qad\u0131na klassik rus \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u0131n\u0131 orijinaldan oxumaq imkan\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 h\u0259s\u0259d aparm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Boyuna-buxununa, evin\u0259-e\u015fiyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 deyil… Bu yaydan sonra insana, heyvana, sevgiy\u0259, k\u0259d\u0259r\u0259 eyni hissiyyats\u0131z m\u00fcnasib\u0259tini g\u00f6r\u00fcb ucunda \u00c7exovu t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259d\u0259n oxumaq olsa bel\u0259 onun yerind\u0259 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ma sevindim.\n<\/p>\n
\n Ortada yaln\u0131z yax\u0131n bioloji \u00e7\u0259r\u00e7iv\u0259y\u0259 deyil, b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fcnyaya a\u00e7\u0131lan b\u00f6y\u00fck \u00fcr\u0259k yoxdursa, gerisi t\u0259f\u0259rr\u00fcatd\u0131r. O zaman adam bilikli, m\u0259lumatl\u0131 nadandan ba\u015fqa bir \u015fey ola bilmir. Bir d\u0259 var s\u0259rh\u0259dsiz duy\u011fulara, b\u0259\u015f\u0259ri sevgil\u0259r\u0259 k\u00f6kl\u0259n\u0259r\u0259k \u00f6z\u00fcn kitab olasan. Bu unudulmaz, k\u00f6vr\u0259k \u0259hvalatdak\u0131 kimi…\n<\/p>\n
\n ***\n<\/p>\n
\n B\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e7\u0259tin g\u00fcnl\u0259rimd\u0259 r\u0259sm\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcl\u00fck etmi\u015f \u201c\u0445altur\u015fik\u201d dostum: \u201cSiz\u0259 bir i\u015fim d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb\u201d \u2013 dey\u0259nd\u0259 dala\u011f\u0131m sancd\u0131. O q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259m\u0259nnas\u0131z ya\u0445\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda \u0259lim \u0259t\u0259yimd\u0259n uzun qalsa, adam\u0131n yan\u0131nda ay\u0131b olard\u0131. Amma sa\u011f olsun, m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olan\u0131 ist\u0259di. H\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn H\u00fcqonun \u201cS\u0259fill\u0259r\u201dni. Kitab\u0131 ver\u0259nd\u0259 maraq x\u0259trin\u0259 soru\u015fdum:\n<\/p>\n
\n \u2013 \u00d6z\u00fcn o\u0445umusanm\u0131?\n<\/p>\n
\n Bir az duruxub t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcdl\u0259: \u201cYox…\u201d \u2013 dedi. Dem\u0259yin\u0259 dedi, amma cavab \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259li g\u0259ldi m\u0259n\u0259. \u201cOxudu\u011funu unudubmu g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n?\u201d \u2013 dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb \u00fcr\u0259k-dir\u0259k verm\u0259k ist\u0259dim:\n<\/p>\n
\n \u2013 Qaytarma\u011fa t\u0259l\u0259sm\u0259, h\u0259v\u0259sin olsa, s\u0259n d\u0259 oxuyarsan.\n<\/p>\n
\n Adam k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259 dill\u0259ndi:\n<\/p>\n
\n \u2013 M\u0259n o kitab\u0131 bilir\u0259m…\n<\/p>\n
\n Cavan vaxt\u0131 Rusiyada i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259rk\u0259n \u0259lind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xan bir q\u0259zaya g\u00f6r\u0259 on il h\u0259bsxanada \u201cyat\u0131bm\u0131\u015f\u201d. Bir g\u00fcn havaland\u0131rmaya apar\u0131landa diqq\u0259tl\u0259ri \u201cMarksa ox\u015fayan bir ki\u015finin\u201d \u015f\u0259klini \u00e7\u0259kir. \u015e\u0259klin alt\u0131ndan h\u0259min \u015f\u0259xs\u0259 aid bir aforizm yaz\u0131l\u0131bm\u0131\u015f. H\u0259bsxana yolda\u015flar\u0131 aras\u0131nda \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u00fck m\u0259hkum edilmi\u015f m\u00fchasib varm\u0131\u015f. K\u00fcll\u00fc yeyintinin b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcnahlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6z \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f \u0259n\u0259n\u0259vi qurban. \u015e\u0259kil bar\u0259d\u0259 ondan soru\u015furlar. M\u00fchasib \u015f\u0259klin d\u0259, aforizmin d\u0259 Viktor H\u00fcqoya m\u0259xsus oldu\u011funu bildirir.\n<\/p>\n
\n O g\u00fcnd\u0259n Uzaq \u015e\u0259rq h\u0259bsxanas\u0131n\u0131n bir k\u00f6\u015f\u0259sind\u0259 \u201cS\u0259fill\u0259r\u201d na\u011f\u0131l\u0131 ba\u015flay\u0131r. M\u00fchasib h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 hadis\u0259l\u0259rin \u0259n maraql\u0131 yerind\u0259 yoruldu\u011funu, a\u011fr\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 b\u0259han\u0259 edib canl\u0131 \u201cqira\u0259tin\u201d vaxt\u0131n\u0131 uzad\u0131rm\u0131\u015f. D\u00fcnyan\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn z\u00f6vql\u0259rind\u0259n t\u0259crid olunmu\u015f ki\u00e7ik \u201cauditoriya\u201d h\u0259min q\u0131\u015fdan b\u00f6y\u00fck \u201cS\u0259fill\u0259r\u201din t\u00fck\u0259nm\u0259z hiss-h\u0259y\u0259can\u0131 il\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r. \u201c\u00d6m\u00fcrl\u00fckl\u0259rin\u201d aras\u0131nda s\u0259ssiz v\u0259 daim ac\u0131ql\u0131 bir qatil d\u0259 varm\u0131\u015f. T\u00fcrm\u0259nin emalatxanas\u0131nda a\u011facdan q\u0259rib\u0259 fiqurlar d\u00fcz\u0259ld\u0259rmi\u015f. M\u00fchasibin \u201cS\u0259fill\u0259r\u201dd\u0259n b\u0259hs etdiyi zamanlarda eyni s\u0259ssizlikl\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 dal\u0131b ged\u0259rmi\u015f. Bir g\u00fcn q\u0259fil yax\u0131nla\u015faraq taxtadan yonulmu\u015f ki\u00e7ik fiqurlar\u0131 yolda\u015flar\u0131na paylay\u0131b m\u00fclayim s\u0259sl\u0259 \u201cdil a\u00e7\u0131r\u201d:\n<\/p>\n
\n \u2013 Qavro\u015fa baxanda m\u0259ni xat\u0131rlayars\u0131n\u0131z…\n<\/p>\n
\n Dostum g\u00f6zl\u0259rini bir anl\u0131q yumub o s\u0259hn\u0259ni xat\u0131rlad\u0131:\n<\/p>\n
\n \u2013 A\u011facdan o fiqurlar\u0131 el\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l yaratm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, el\u0259 bil Qavro\u015fun \u00f6z\u00fc idi!\n<\/p>\n
\n Qoca m\u00fchasibmi \u201ctan\u0131tm\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u201d Qavro\u015fu, yoxsa qona\u011f\u0131m\u0131n \u00f6z fantaziyas\u0131 idimi? N\u0259 f\u0259rqi varm\u0131\u015f ki, onsuz da Qavro\u015f h\u0259r k\u0259sin q\u0259lbin\u0259 d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 kimi yerl\u0259\u015fib. H\u0259tta cinay\u0259tl\u0259rin \u0259n a\u011f\u0131r\u0131n\u0131 t\u00f6r\u0259tmi\u015f qaraqabaq adam\u0131n q\u0259lbi bel\u0259 onu a\u011faca \u201ck\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcr\u0259nd\u0259\u201d \u015f\u0259fq\u0259t v\u0259 sevgi i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 dolubmu\u015f…\n<\/p>\n
\n Qavro\u015fun sevgi heyk\u0259lini yaradan o adama \u201cqatil\u201d dem\u0259y\u0259 bu d\u0259f\u0259 dilim g\u0259lm\u0259di…\n<\/p>\n
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\n Yaz\u0131 m\u00fc\u0259llifin fikirl\u0259rini \u0259ks etdirir v\u0259 Meydan TV-nin m\u00f6vqeyi il\u0259 \u00fcst-\u00fcst\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 bil\u0259r.
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