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\n \u201cSitat\u0131n sonu\u201d dey\u0259 bilmir\u0259m, \u00e7\u00fcnki \u00f6lk\u0259 bel\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r m\u0259n\u0259viyyat travmalar\u0131 il\u0259 doludur
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\n H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 eyni m\u0259kandan v\u0259 eyni insandan yazmaqdan utan\u0131ram, amma geni\u015f, d\u0259rin m\u00f6vzulara giri\u015fm\u0259kd\u0259n d\u0259 qorxuram. \u00c7\u00fcnki olsa-olsa ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m yeri v\u0259 o yer\u0259 aid insanlar\u0131 t\u0259svir etm\u0259y\u0259 g\u00fcc\u00fcm \u00e7at\u0131r. \u018fslind\u0259 da\u011f olsun, aran olsun, k\u0259nd olsun, \u015f\u0259h\u0259r olsun, b\u00fct\u00f6v \u00f6lk\u0259d\u0259 rejim v\u0259 xalq k\u00fctl\u0259si eyni anormal m\u00fcnasib\u0259td\u0259dir. Birincisi \u0259z\u0259r\u0259k m\u0259mnundur, ikincisi \u0259zil\u0259r\u0259k m\u0259mnunluq m\u0259cburiyy\u0259tind\u0259.\n<\/p>\n
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\n Ni\u015fan \u00fcz\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc s\u0259l\u0259m\u00e7iy\u0259 girov qoyub toya ged\u0259n \u0259d\u0259biyyat m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259sini g\u0259linin ke\u00e7mi\u015f sinif r\u0259hb\u0259ri kimi mikrafona d\u0259v\u0259t edirl\u0259r. Qudalar yerli hakimiyy\u0259tin da\u015fla\u015fm\u0131\u015f s\u00fctunlar\u0131 oldu\u011fundan salon m\u0259murlarla doludur.\n<\/p>\n
\n \u201cNatiq\u201d auditoriyan\u0131 \u0259l\u0259 almaq t\u0259cr\u00fcb\u0259sind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f edir:\n<\/p>\n
\n \u2013 He\u00e7 yad\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131xmaz, be\u015finci sinifd\u0259 oxuyan Arzu bir g\u00fcn t\u0259n\u0259ff\u00fcsd\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 m\u00fcraci\u0259t etdi:
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\n \u2013 M\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259, n\u0259 ed\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m ki, ya\u015f\u0131m s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 arts\u0131n?
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\n \u2013 Bu, s\u0259nin n\u0259yin\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131r ki, q\u0131z\u0131m? \u2013 dey\u0259 ondan soru\u015fdum.
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\n Arzu m\u0259kt\u0259bin divar\u0131na vurulmu\u015f ulu \u00f6nd\u0259rin portretin\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tl\u0259 bax\u0131b ah \u00e7\u0259kdi:
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\n \u2013 YAP-a ke\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259sir\u0259m, \u0259ziz m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259!\n<\/p>\n
\n Arzunun art\u0131q h\u0259yata ke\u00e7mi\u015f b\u00f6y\u00fck arzusu o zaman m\u0259ni u\u015faq kimi k\u00f6vr\u0259ltdi. \u0130nan\u0131n, parlaq g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 daim inand\u0131\u011f\u0131m d\u0259y\u0259rli \u015fagirdiml\u0259 duydu\u011fum q\u00fcruru ifad\u0259 etm\u0259y\u0259 s\u00f6z tapm\u0131ram.\n<\/p>\n
\n T\u0259brikin i\u00e7in\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn d\u0259 \u201c\u0259m\u0259kdar m\u00fc\u0259llim\u201d h\u0259sr\u0259tini yerl\u0259\u015fdir\u0259n \u0259d\u0259biyyat m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259sinin k\u00f6vr\u0259k fantaziyas\u0131na hay\u0131l-may\u0131l olmamaq m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyil.\n<\/p>\n<\/p>\n
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\n Toy demi\u015fk\u0259n, Kamal\u0259ddin Heyd\u0259rovun o\u011flunun toyu yad\u0131n\u0131zdad\u0131rm\u0131? Adam h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6z\u0259l g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259 mikrafon g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb mahn\u0131 oxuyur. Y\u0259ni, m\u0259\u015fhur \u201cAlag\u00f6z\u201d mahn\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 oxuma\u011fa \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259m\u0259xsus c\u0259hd g\u00f6st\u0259rir. T\u0259bii ki, istisna hallarda h\u00f6kum\u0259t r\u0259smisinin d\u0259 sad\u0259 insan olaraq i\u00e7ind\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259ni etm\u0259k haqq\u0131 anla\u015f\u0131land\u0131r. Bu jesti h\u0259tta alq\u0131\u015flamaq da olar. \u0130nt\u0259has\u0131 ifas\u0131n\u0131 bitir\u0259r-bitirm\u0259z c\u0259nab nazirin s\u0259sl\u0259ndirdiyi: \u2013 \u201cE\u015fq olsun Heyd\u0259r \u018fliyev\u0259, e\u015fq olsun \u0130lham \u018fliyev\u0259!\u201d \u015f\u00fcar\u0131n\u0131 he\u00e7 yer\u0259 yozmaq olmur. \u018fs\u0259rin s\u00f6zl\u0259ri, b\u0259st\u0259si v\u0259 indiy\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r o klassik n\u00fcmun\u0259y\u0259 m\u00f6h\u00fcr vurmu\u015f \u0259v\u0259zsiz ifalar \u0259liyevl\u0259r\u0259 aid deyil. M\u0259clis des\u0259n, yen\u0259 onlarla bir ba\u011fl\u0131l\u0131q yoxdur. Sad\u0259c\u0259 daimi narahatl\u0131q, \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259, xof v\u0259 sair\u0259 kimi \u00fcz\u00fcc\u00fc \u015feyl\u0259r var ki, adam ondansa toydan borclu \u00e7\u0131xsa, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc daha rahat v\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt hiss ed\u0259rdi.\n<\/p>\n
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\n Bir ki\u015finin minn\u0259tdarl\u0131q yaz\u0131s\u0131d\u0131r:\n<\/p>\n
\n \u201cH\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131m qad\u0131n x\u0259st\u0259liynd\u0259n \u0259ziyy\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kirdi. \u00c7ox yerl\u0259r\u0259 apard\u0131q, \u00e7ar\u0259 olmad\u0131. N\u0259hay\u0259t, rayonumuzda f\u0259aliyy\u0259t g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259n Diaqnostika M\u0259rk\u0259zin\u0259 g\u0259tirdik. M\u0259rk\u0259zin c\u0259rrah\u0131 (ad \u00e7\u0259kmir\u0259m, \u00e7\u00fcnki az qala h\u0259kimlik bir i\u015f yox imi\u015f) a\u011f\u0131r v\u0259 u\u011furlu bir \u0259m\u0259liyyat apar\u0131b h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131m\u0131 yenid\u0259n biz\u0259 qaytard\u0131. Ki\u015fi b\u00fct\u00fcn ail\u0259si ad\u0131ndan h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259yata d\u00f6nm\u0259sind\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck \u0259m\u0259yi olan \u00f6lk\u0259 r\u0259hb\u0259rin\u0259, neft \u015firk\u0259tinin prezidentin\u0259, rayonun icra ba\u015f\u00e7\u0131s\u0131na v\u0259 \u0259n sonda… \u0259m\u0259liyyat h\u0259kimin\u0259 minn\u0259tdarl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bildirir. Bu vacib s\u0131ralamada c\u0259rrah-h\u0259kimin he\u00e7 olmasa unudulmad\u0131\u011f\u0131na sevinirs\u0259n…\n<\/p>\n
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\n \u201cAil\u0259nin ne\u00e7\u0259 illik b\u00fcdc\u0259si hesab\u0131na r\u0259smi qullu\u011fa qoyulan g\u0259nc ax\u015fam ev\u0259 dilxor qay\u0131d\u0131b elan edir ki, daha i\u015f\u0259 getm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. Ata soru\u015fur:\n<\/p>\n
\n \u2013 S\u0259ni i\u015fd\u0259n qovdumu?\n<\/p>\n
\n \u2013 Yox, t\u0259hqir etdi…\n<\/p>\n
\n \u2013 B\u0259s onda bunun haras\u0131 t\u0259hqir olur? Adam \u0259s\u0259bil\u0259\u015fib s\u0259sini bir az qald\u0131r\u0131b dey\u0259 o boyda i\u015fi atmaqm\u0131 ist\u0259yirs\u0259n? S\u0259h\u0259r adam balas\u0131 kimi ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sal\u0131b i\u015fin\u0259 get. N\u0259 des\u0259l\u0259r, vecin\u0259 almay\u0131b, b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u0259rin g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 girm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f. Yerini b\u0259rkid\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259r \u015feyi birt\u0259h\u0259r yola ver. \u201cB\u0259li\u201d, \u201cba\u015f \u00fcst\u0259\u201d dey\u0259-dey\u0259 bir d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn adam s\u00f6y\u00fcrs\u0259n. Onun-bunun haqq\u0131ndan \u00f6tr\u00fc i\u015fini t\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259y\u0259 atma. Xalq\u0131n d\u0259rdi s\u0259n\u0259 qalmay\u0131b ki. Unutma, dilini dinc saxlayan\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131 a\u011fr\u0131maz. \u00d6lk\u0259 i\u015fsizl\u0259rl\u0259 doludur. Biz s\u0259n\u0259 sahib \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b i\u015f d\u00fcz\u0259ltdik ki, h\u0259m \u00f6z\u00fcn m\u0259ns\u0259b sahibi olasan, h\u0259m evin k\u00fclf\u0259tin\u0259 faydan toxunsun.\n<\/p>\n
\n \u2013 Ay ata, adam ax\u0131, ana s\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u00fc s\u00f6yd\u00fc. \u0130ndi he\u00e7 n\u0259 olmam\u0131\u015f kimi gedib onun \u0259linin alt\u0131nda nec\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yim?\n<\/p>\n
\n \u2013 He\u00e7 n\u0259 olmam\u0131\u015f kimi? B\u0259s n\u0259 olub ki? O, orda s\u00f6ym\u0259kl\u0259 anan\u0131n can\u0131 incidimi burda? S\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f havad\u0131, bala. A\u011f\u0131z a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131b yumulunca u\u00e7ub gedir. M\u0259nim anam\u0131 da s\u00f6y\u00fcbl\u0259r. \u00dcr\u0259kl\u0259ri soyumayanda ba\u015f\u0131ma da n\u0259s\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131blar. Yen\u0259 dinm\u0259zc\u0259 i\u015fim\u0259 gedib-g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m. N\u0259 anam\u0131n z\u0259ri t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcb, n\u0259 d\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n. \u018fksin\u0259, artm\u0131\u015f\u0131q ki, azalmam\u0131\u015f\u0131q.\n<\/p>\n
\n \u201cSitat\u0131n sonu\u201d dey\u0259 bilmir\u0259m, \u00e7\u00fcnki \u00f6lk\u0259 bel\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r m\u0259n\u0259viyyat travmalar\u0131 il\u0259 doludur. Amma h\u0259bsi, i\u015fg\u0259nc\u0259ni g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn alt\u0131na al\u0131b qul psixologiyas\u0131na \u00fcsyan ed\u0259n f\u0259rdl\u0259r daha z\u0259ngin v\u0259 yenilm\u0259zdir. \u00dcst\u0259lik, \u201cyoluxucu\u201ddurlar.\n<\/p>\n
\n Ucunda K\u00fcrd\u0259xan\u0131 olsa bel\u0259, \u015f\u00fcurlu v\u0259t\u0259nda\u015f\u0131 s\u0131nd\u0131rmaq get-ged\u0259 m\u00fc\u015fk\u00fcl\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fcr…\n<\/p>\n
\n H\u00f6kum\u0259t bu \u201cepidemiyan\u0131n\u201d qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ala bil\u0259c\u0259kmi?\n<\/p>\n
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\n Yaz\u0131 m\u00fc\u0259llifin fikirl\u0259rini \u0259ks etdirir v\u0259 Meydan TV-nin m\u00f6vqeyi il\u0259 \u00fcst-\u00fcst\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 bil\u0259r.
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