{"id":182218,"date":"2017-01-30T20:18:11","date_gmt":"2017-01-30T20:18:11","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.meydan.tv\/article\/cox-qorxulu-meqamlar-yasadim\/"},"modified":"2017-01-30T20:18:11","modified_gmt":"2017-01-30T20:18:11","slug":"cox-qorxulu-meqamlar-yasadim","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.meydan.tv\/az\/article\/cox-qorxulu-meqamlar-yasadim\/","title":{"rendered":"”\u00c7ox qorxulu m\u0259qamlar ya\u015fad\u0131m”"},"content":{"rendered":"
\n \"F\u0259rhad
\n F\u0259rhad Yalquzaq
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\n 8 ay me\u015f\u0259d\u0259 t\u0259k ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f r\u0259ssam: \u201c\u0130\u015fd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m, paltarlar\u0131m\u0131 zibilliy\u0259 tullay\u0131b, me\u015f\u0259y\u0259 ya\u015fama\u011fa getdim…\u201d\n<\/p>\n

\n R\u0259ssam F\u0259rhad Yalquzaq \u0259sas\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn bioqrafik \u201cOrman adam\u0131\u201d kitab\u0131 il\u0259 tan\u0131n\u0131r. T\u0259xmin\u0259n iki il \u0259vv\u0259l, m\u0259tbuat bir r\u0259ssam\u0131n sivil h\u0259yat\u0131 t\u0259rk edib, me\u015f\u0259d\u0259 t\u0259k ya\u015famaq q\u0259rar\u0131ndan yazma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. \u00c7oxuna bu, piar, reklam kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcns\u0259 d\u0259, F\u0259rhad Yalquzaq, do\u011frudan da, y\u00fcks\u0259k g\u0259lirli i\u015fini, emalatxanas\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259rk edib me\u015f\u0259y\u0259 yerl\u0259\u015fdi v\u0259 orada ya\u015fama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. S\u0259kkiz aydan \u00e7ox bir zaman ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259n sonra is\u0259 o, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u201cOrman adam\u0131\u201d kitab\u0131 il\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131.\n<\/p>\n

\n F\u0259rhad Yalquzaq \u00f6z q\u0259rar\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259b\u0259bi, me\u015f\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131, insanlar\u0131n ona m\u00fcnasib\u0259ti v\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k planlar\u0131 bar\u0259d\u0259 Meydan TV-y\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r.\n<\/p>\n

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\n F\u0259rhad, nec\u0259 oldu ki, bird\u0259n sivil d\u00fcnyadan \u0259l \u00e7\u0259kib me\u015f\u0259d\u0259 ya\u015fama\u011fa q\u0259rar verdiniz?
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\n M\u0259n b\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0259yat\u0131m boyu buna do\u011fru g\u0259lirdim. \u00d6z h\u0259yat t\u0259rzimd\u0259n raz\u0131 deyildim. B\u00f6y\u00fck m\u0259bl\u0259\u011fd\u0259 maa\u015f al\u0131rd\u0131m, amma i\u015fimd\u0259n d\u0259 raz\u0131 deyildim. \u0130ll\u0259r \u00f6nc\u0259 i\u015fimi t\u0259rk edib, s\u0259rb\u0259st ya\u015famaq, emalatxanama \u00e7\u0259kilib yaln\u0131z s\u0259n\u0259timl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olmaq ist\u0259mi\u015fdim, ancaq o zaman h\u0259l\u0259 haz\u0131r deyildim. Arzumun arxas\u0131nca ged\u0259 bilm\u0259dim, stabil i\u015fi, yax\u015f\u0131 v\u0259zif\u0259si v\u0259 pulu olan adam \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n x\u0259tt \u00e7\u0259kib, hans\u0131sa avant\u00fcrist bir ideyan\u0131n arxas\u0131nca d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k asan m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 deyil. \u0130nsan psixoloji c\u0259h\u0259td\u0259n haz\u0131r olmal\u0131d\u0131r.\n<\/p>\n

\n M\u0259n d\u0259 aylarla d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm, says\u0131z-hesabs\u0131z filml\u0259r\u0259 baxd\u0131m. Mavi ekranda ormana yollan\u0131b uzun s\u00fcr\u0259 orada ya\u015fayan insanlar\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Bu insanlar ad\u0259t\u0259n yarad\u0131c\u0131 pe\u015f\u0259 sahibl\u0259ri deyil, adi insanlar idi. Sivilizasiyadan bezib \u00f6zl\u0259rini ormanda axtar\u0131rd\u0131lar. Q\u0131raqdan baxanda bu h\u0259yat\u0131n d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t romantikas\u0131 var. “Sivilizasiyada” olan zaman adama el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, burada, ormanda haraya ayaq bassan orada s\u0259ni bir \u015fikar g\u00f6zl\u0259yir. He\u00e7 evind\u0259n q\u0131ra\u011fa \u00e7\u0131xma, p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n t\u00fcf\u0259ngini uzat v\u0259 yax\u0131nl\u0131qdan ke\u00e7\u0259n c\u00fcy\u00fcr\u00fc vur. Yaxud be\u015f add\u0131ml\u0131qdak\u0131 \u00e7aya yollan v\u0259 yar\u0131m saat\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 on d\u0259n\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck bal\u0131q tut. \u00d6rd\u0259kl\u0259r, qazlar v\u0259 dig\u0259r iri, yem\u0259li qu\u015flar az qala g\u0259lib t\u00fcf\u0259nginin l\u00fcl\u0259sin\u0259 qonur. M\u0259n d\u0259 bel\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Ancaq reall\u0131q ba\u015fqa \u015feyi s\u00f6yl\u0259yirdi ki, onu da m\u0259n s\u0259kkiz ay da\u011flarda, ormanlarda t\u0259k ya\u015fayark\u0259n g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.
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\n Sivil h\u0259yatdan qopub me\u015f\u0259d\u0259 ya\u015famaq he\u00e7 kim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn a\u011flabatan say\u0131la bilm\u0259z. Ancaq m\u0259n ham\u0131 kimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 bilmir\u0259m. Ham\u0131 kimi ya\u015famaq ist\u0259mir\u0259m. F\u0259rqli bir yolun adam\u0131 oldu\u011fumu hiss edirdim. Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u00f6lk\u0259nin durumu, siyasi, sosial ortam da m\u0259n\u0259 \u00f6z ideyam\u0131 h\u0259yata ke\u00e7irm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u015f\u0259rait yaratm\u0131\u015f oldu. Uzun ill\u0259r bu haqda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb yorulmu\u015fdum. Sad\u0259c\u0259 \u00f6z arzuma do\u011fru add\u0131m atd\u0131m.\n<\/p>\n

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\n Bu ideyan\u0131z ail\u0259niz, dostlar\u0131n\u0131z t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n nec\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131land\u0131?
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\n – He\u00e7 kim bu ideyan\u0131 t\u0259qdir etm\u0259di. He\u00e7 kim hans\u0131 arzularla ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bilmirdi. \u00c7\u00fcnki Az\u0259rbaycanda he\u00e7 kim bel\u0259 bir add\u0131m atmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Yeni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259, f\u0259rqli h\u0259yat t\u0259rzi orta statistik az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn anlam da\u015f\u0131ya bilm\u0259z. Ba\u015fqalar\u0131n\u0131n fikri il\u0259 ya\u015fayanlar yeni ideyalara tolerant m\u00fcnasib\u0259t b\u0259sl\u0259y\u0259 bilm\u0259zl\u0259r. Bizd\u0259 insanlar “palaza b\u00fcr\u00fcn, el il\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fcn” prinsipil\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 onlar\u0131n ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 h\u0259yat t\u0259rzind\u0259n f\u0259rql\u0259n\u0259n h\u0259yat\u0131 se\u00e7\u0259nl\u0259ri normal q\u0259bul ed\u0259 bilm\u0259zl\u0259r. H\u0259tta \u0259n yax\u0131n dostlar\u0131m h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tim\u0259 haqq qazand\u0131rmad\u0131lar. “Yax\u015f\u0131 i\u015fin, \u0259la maa\u015f\u0131n var,b\u0259y, bu, s\u0259n\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131rm\u0131?” dey\u0259nl\u0259r \u00e7ox oldu. Da\u011flarda t\u0259kba\u015f\u0131na ya\u015faya bil\u0259c\u0259yim\u0259 dem\u0259k olar ki, he\u00e7 kim inanmad\u0131. Ancaq bu, m\u0259ni narahat etmirdi. \u00c7\u00fcnki \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 inan\u0131rd\u0131m.\n<\/p>\n

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\n – Bildiyim q\u0259d\u0259ril\u0259 bu h\u0259yata ba\u015flamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn emalatxanan\u0131z\u0131 satm\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z v\u0259 i\u015fd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z…
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\n – Emalatxanam\u0131 satmad\u0131m. Bo\u015fanandan sonra emalatxanam\u0131 ke\u00e7mi\u015f h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131ma v\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131ma vermi\u015fdim. M\u0259n\u0259 azadl\u0131q laz\u0131m idi: bunun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn hans\u0131 x\u0259rcl\u0259r\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259yimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Kiray\u0259l\u0259diyim emalatxanan\u0131 sahibin\u0259 qaytard\u0131m, 600-\u0259 yax\u0131n kitab\u0131m\u0131 elan verib dostlara, tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m insanlara paylad\u0131m, \u0259\u015fyalar\u0131m\u0131n bir hiss\u0259sini r\u0259ssam dostumun emalatxanas\u0131na qoydum; r\u0259sml\u0259rimin \u00e7oxunu h\u0259diyy\u0259 etdim; qalan h\u0259r \u015feyi, paltarlar\u0131m\u0131, ayaqqab\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131 zibilliy\u0259 tullay\u0131b, \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m.\n<\/p>\n

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\n – M\u0259hz harada, hans\u0131 me\u015f\u0259d\u0259 v\u0259 nec\u0259 ya\u015fayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 nec\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n etdiniz v\u0259 o plan\u0131 nec\u0259 qurdunuz?
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\n – He\u00e7 bir plan qurmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Sad\u0259c\u0259 olaraq bir me\u015f\u0259y\u0259 yollan\u0131b (Q\u0259b\u0259l\u0259d\u0259 u\u015faq vaxt\u0131 g\u0259zdiyim me\u015f\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 yerl\u0259\u015fm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim) orada balaca bir koma tikm\u0259k v\u0259 t\u0259k ya\u015famaq ist\u0259yirdim. \u00c7ox avant\u00fcrist bir arzu idi. Ancaq el\u0259 bir insanla tan\u0131\u015f oldum ki, bunlara g\u0259r\u0259k olmad\u0131. O adam \u00f6z imkanlar\u0131ndan istifad\u0259 ed\u0259r\u0259k v\u0259 eyni zamanda b\u00f6y\u00fck f\u0259dakarl\u0131q g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259r\u0259k, m\u0259n\u0259 ist\u0259diyim h\u0259r bir \u015f\u0259raiti yaratd\u0131. Y\u0259ni m\u0259n insanlardan uzaq bir yerd\u0259 ya\u015famaq ist\u0259yirdim, \u2013 yeni dostum m\u0259nim arzumu yerin\u0259 yetirdi. B\u00fct\u00fcn ehtiyaclar\u0131m\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131. Orman h\u0259yat\u0131 ya\u015famaq, bu haqda kitab yazmaq ist\u0259diyimi bil\u0259nd\u0259, yeni dostum b\u00fct\u00fcn riskl\u0259ri g\u00f6z alt\u0131na ald\u0131, sona q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259n\u0259vi olaraq yan\u0131mda oldu.\n<\/p>\n

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\n – Orada h\u0259yat nec\u0259 ke\u00e7di, ilk g\u00fcnl\u0259r n\u0259 hiss edirdiniz, texnikadan istifad\u0259 edirdinizmi, yax\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131zla nec\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259 saxlay\u0131rd\u0131n\u0131z?
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\n – \u0130lk \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn \u0259n a\u011f\u0131r g\u00fcnl\u0259r idi. Q\u0131rx iki il \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131b, sonra t\u0259kba\u015f\u0131na me\u015f\u0259d\u0259 qalan adam\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcn. \u00c7ox qorxulu anlar ya\u015fad\u0131m. \u018fn \u00e7ox da gec\u0259l\u0259r qorxurdum. Hans\u0131sa bir v\u0259h\u015fi heyvan\u0131n h\u00fccumuna m\u0259ruz qalsayd\u0131m, yeti\u015f\u0259n olmayacaqd\u0131. Gec\u0259l\u0259r ota\u011f\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259n ba\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131m. Balaca bir h\u0259nirti duyan kimi t\u00fckl\u0259rim biz-biz olurdu. H\u0259tta bir b\u0259han\u0259 uydurub geri qay\u0131tmaq haqq\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Ancaq d\u00f6zd\u00fcm. \u00d6z\u00fcml\u0259 \u00e7arp\u0131\u015fd\u0131m v\u0259 sonda z\u0259iflikl\u0259rim\u0259 qalib g\u0259l\u0259 bildim. \u00dc\u00e7 g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra sad\u0259c\u0259 olaraq yaz\u0131lar\u0131ma ba\u015f vurdum. H\u0259r g\u00fcn \u0259n az\u0131 alt\u0131, yeddi saat yaz\u0131 masas\u0131n\u0131n arxas\u0131nda otururdum. Azadl\u0131\u011f\u0131n xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyini hiss etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131m. \u0130nsan tamamil\u0259 t\u0259k, sivilizasiyadan \u00e7ox uzaq qald\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259qamda nec\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt ola bil\u0259r? Yaln\u0131z yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 say\u0259sind\u0259. Orada, da\u011f\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda, v\u0259h\u015fi heyvalar\u0131n \u0259hat\u0259sind\u0259 he\u00e7 bir i\u015fl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olmasan, iki h\u0259ft\u0259d\u0259n sonra d\u0259li olma\u011f\u0131n lab\u00fcdd\u00fcr. M\u0259n ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m ortamla harmoniya yarada bildim v\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m h\u0259r saniy\u0259d\u0259n z\u00f6vq alma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m.\n<\/p>\n

\n Orada balaca bir generatorum vard\u0131. Gec\u0259l\u0259 onu i\u015f\u0259 sal\u0131b iki-\u00fc\u00e7 saat i\u015fl\u0259dirdim, bilgisayar\u0131m\u0131 v\u0259 telefonumu doldururdum. Telefon dal\u011fan\u0131 tuturdu. H\u0259tta internet\u0259 d\u0259 girm\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcn idi. Arada \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 qalan do\u011fmalar\u0131mla, dostlar\u0131mla \u0259laq\u0259 saxlay\u0131rd\u0131m. H\u0259tta bir internet sayt\u0131na oradan telefonla m\u00fcsahib\u0259 d\u0259 vermi\u015fdim. Ancaq \u00e7ox zaman telefonumu ba\u011fl\u0131 saxlay\u0131rd\u0131m. Vaxt\u0131m\u0131 daha \u00e7ox yaz\u0131 masas\u0131 arxas\u0131nda ke\u00e7irirdim. \u0130\u015fd\u0259n yorulanda is\u0259 a\u011fac\u0131m\u0131 \u0259lim\u0259 al\u0131b ormanlarda dola\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m.\n<\/p>\n

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\n – Haz\u0131rda bu h\u0259yata davam edirsinizmi?
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\n – Davam etmir\u0259m, ancaq yen\u0259 d\u0259 firkim-zikrim oralardad\u0131r. Yen\u0259 d\u0259 da\u011flara \u00e7\u0259kilib yaz\u0131-pozu i\u015fin\u0259 dalmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m. S\u0259kkiz ayda ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m o g\u00f6z\u0259l anlar\u0131 h\u0259yat\u0131ma yenid\u0259n qatyarmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Bunun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qar\u015f\u0131mda dem\u0259k olar ki, he\u00e7 bir mane\u0259 yoxdur. Ancaq h\u0259l\u0259 tam haz\u0131r deyil\u0259m. Yeni roman\u0131n material\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259 toplaya bilm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. “Orman adam\u0131”n\u0131n be\u015finci hiss\u0259sini d\u0259 yazma\u011fa tam haz\u0131r deyil\u0259m. Bir d\u0259 ki, indi yeni bir ideyan\u0131 h\u0259yata ke\u00e7irm\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131ram. T\u00fcrkiy\u0259li bir dostumla birlikd\u0259 motosikletl\u0259rl\u0259 d\u00fcnya s\u0259yah\u0259tin\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xma\u011fa haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131r\u0131q. Maddi m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259ri h\u0259ll etm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r\u0131q. H\u0259r \u015fey qaydas\u0131nda gets\u0259, bu ilin yay\u0131nda o s\u0259yah\u0259t\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xaca\u011f\u0131q. V\u0259 t\u0259bii ki, o s\u0259yah\u0259t d\u0259 bo\u015funa getm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k.\n<\/p>\n

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\n – Orman h\u0259yat\u0131 siz\u0259 n\u0259l\u0259ri \u00f6yr\u0259tdi?
\n <\/b>\n<\/p>\n

\n – H\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n \u00f6nc\u0259 pozitivliyi \u00f6yr\u0259tdi. Y\u0259ni, h\u0259yat\u0131nda n\u0259l\u0259rin ba\u015f verm\u0259sind\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 olmayaraq, he\u00e7 vaxt t\u00f6vr\u00fcn\u00fc pozmayacaqsan. Pozitiv insan xo\u015fb\u0259xt insand\u0131r. M\u0259n h\u0259yata daha nikbin baxma\u011f\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259ndim. Depressiv c\u0259miyy\u0259td\u0259 ya\u015fayan insan \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bu, \u00e7ox \u00f6n\u0259mlidir.
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\n Ormandan qay\u0131dandan sonra bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t haval\u0131 kimi g\u0259zdim. \u015e\u0259h\u0259r h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259s-k\u00fcy\u00fcn\u0259, s\u00fcniliyin\u0259 yenid\u0259n \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fm\u0259k \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259tin oldu. Ancaq insan h\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 al\u0131\u015f\u0131r. \u0130nsan \u00f6z\u00fc-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 qada\u011falar qoya bilir. Sevm\u0259diyi bir \u015fey\u0259 d\u00f6z\u0259 bilir. M\u0259nim xarakterim da\u011flarda bir az a\u015f\u0131lanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u0130ndi \u0259traf\u0131mda ba\u015f ver\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259 yumor hissil\u0259, h\u0259tta ironik yana\u015fa bilir\u0259m.\n<\/p>\n

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\n – Yax\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131zdan geri g\u0259lm\u0259yinizi ist\u0259y\u0259n oldumu?
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\n – Yax\u0131nlar\u0131m ancaq el\u0259 bu haqda dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar. “B\u0259sdir heyvan kimi me\u015f\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 qald\u0131n, art\u0131q geri qay\u0131tma\u011f\u0131n vaxt\u0131d\u0131r” deyirdil\u0259r. M\u0259ni orada v\u0259h\u015fi heyvanlar\u0131n par\u00e7alayaca\u011f\u0131ndan qorxurdular. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 bel\u0259 t\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259ruz qald\u0131m, ancaq bu, m\u0259ni qorxutmad\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnki m\u0259n \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f qonaq kimi onlar\u0131n evin\u0259 girmi\u015fdim. Par\u00e7alaya bil\u0259rdil\u0259r. Par\u00e7alamad\u0131lar. Heyvanlar b\u0259z\u0259n daha h\u00fcmanistdirl\u0259r. Biz\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 tolerant ola bilirl\u0259r. Sad\u0259c\u0259 onlara qar\u015f\u0131 say\u011f\u0131yla davranmaq laz\u0131md\u0131r.\n<\/p>\n

\n M\u0259nim bir ay\u0131n\u0131n h\u00fccumuna m\u0259ruz qald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259n sonra \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 qay\u0131tma\u011f\u0131m\u0131 t\u0259kid ed\u0259nl\u0259rin say\u0131 \u00e7oxald\u0131. Bac\u0131m z\u0259ng edib a\u011flad\u0131. Ancaq m\u0259n o zaman h\u0259l\u0259 he\u00e7 bir ay deyildi ki, da\u011flardayd\u0131m. Kitab\u0131n he\u00e7 birinci hiss\u0259sini d\u0259 yaz\u0131b tamamlamam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. V\u0259 t\u0259bii ki, qay\u0131tmad\u0131m. Yaln\u0131z b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00f6rd cildi tamamlayandan sonra geri qay\u0131tmaq haqq\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131m. H\u0259tta \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 g\u0259lib bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t qald\u0131m. Ancaq yen\u0259 d\u0259 geri, da\u011flara d\u00f6nd\u00fcm v\u0259 bu d\u0259f\u0259 orada r\u0259ngli boyalarla i\u015fl\u0259dim. Dostum m\u0259n\u0259 k\u0259tan, boyalar, f\u0131r\u00e7alar al\u0131b g\u0259tirdi. \u00c7oxlu (200-\u0259 yax\u0131n) qrafik \u0259s\u0259r i\u015fl\u0259dim. Otuza yax\u0131n k\u0259tan\u0131 r\u0259ngl\u0259 doldurdum. V\u0259 geri qay\u0131d\u0131b roman\u0131 \u00e7apa haz\u0131rlama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m.\n<\/p>\n

\n Art\u0131q doqquz ayd\u0131r ki, Bak\u0131dayam. Kitab\u0131n ilk iki cildini dostlar\u0131m\u0131n yard\u0131m\u0131 il\u0259 \u00e7ap etdirmi\u015f\u0259m. Qalan iki cildi \u00e7ap etdirm\u0259y\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 ki, imkan\u0131m yoxdur. Ancaq g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259y\u0259 nikbin bax\u0131ram.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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