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\n Kitablar\u0131 oxuduqca onlar\u0131 yazanlar\u0131n m\u00fcxt\u0259lif insan hissl\u0259ri, fikirl\u0259rini h\u0259r\u0259si \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259m\u0259xsus \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 ifad\u0259 etm\u0259si m\u0259ni h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259, yax\u015f\u0131 m\u0259nada t\u0259\u0259c\u00fcbl\u0259ndirib. \u00a0El\u0259 indi d\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndirir, \u0259ks halda, b\u0259dii \u0259d\u0259biyyat oxuma\u011f\u0131n da\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7oxdan atard\u0131m. Amma t\u0259kc\u0259 bu n\u00fcans yox, yarad\u0131c\u0131 insan\u0131n h\u0259yat t\u0259rzi, onu yarad\u0131c\u0131 olma\u011fa meyill\u0259ndir\u0259n daxili t\u0259labat\u0131, ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 h\u0259yat \u015f\u0259rtl\u0259ri d\u0259 sonsuz mara\u011f\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kir. Bu insanlar\u0131n d\u00fcnyas\u0131na dalmaq, onlar\u0131 anlamaq \u00e7oxdank\u0131 h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259rimd\u0259ndir.\n<\/p>\n

\n Bilmir\u0259m niy\u0259, amma bir \u00e7ox insan, x\u00fcsus\u0259n, yarad\u0131c\u0131 olanlar, insanlar\u0131 m\u00fcxt\u0259lif \u0259saslara dayanaraq sinifl\u0259ndirm\u0259yi \u00e7ox sevir. Y\u0259qin, bu, h\u0259yat\u0131 v\u0259 insanlar\u0131 anlama\u011fa onlara k\u00f6m\u0259k edir, h\u0259r \u015feyi daha ayd\u0131n v\u0259 anla\u015f\u0131lan q\u0131l\u0131r.\u00a0 Bu m\u0259nada, \u0259n \u00e7ox sevdiyim sinifl\u0259ndirm\u0259ni Nikolo Makiavveli (Niccolo Machiavelli) edib. Onun fikrinc\u0259, insanlar \u00fc\u00e7 yer\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fcr: a)dahil\u0259r, b) dahi olmay\u0131b amma onlar\u0131 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nl\u0259r, c) n\u0259 dahi olanlar, n\u0259 d\u0259 dahi olanlar\u0131 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nl\u0259r. Bu sinifl\u0259ndirm\u0259d\u0259 ham\u0131 \u00f6z yerini rahatca g\u00f6r\u0259 bil\u0259r.\n<\/p>\n

\n R\u0259smd\u0259n ba\u015f\u0131m \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131r, o m\u0259nada ki, m\u0259n onu he\u00e7 bir zaman d\u0259y\u0259l\u0259ndir\u0259 bilm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, bilmir\u0259m. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n, adi r\u0259ssam\u0131n \u00e7\u0259kdiyi t\u0259bi\u0259t t\u0259sviri il\u0259 Van Qoqun \u00e7\u0259kdiyi r\u0259smi g\u00f6st\u0259rsinl\u0259r, onlardan hans\u0131n\u0131n pe\u015f\u0259kar, hans\u0131n\u0131n adi\u00a0 r\u0259ssam t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kildiyini d\u0259qiq dey\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n odur ki, bu m\u0259nada \u00e7ox z\u00f6vqs\u00fcz\u0259m. Amma b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar r\u0259ssamlar\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131na, onlar\u0131n yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131q ehtiras\u0131na olan mara\u011f\u0131m\u0131 q\u0259tiyy\u0259n azaltmay\u0131b. Son g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259 Vinsent Van Qoqun \u00f6z qarda\u015f\u0131 Teoya v\u0259 dostlar\u0131na yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259ktublar\u0131n toplusunu oxudum.\n<\/p>\n

\n Van Qoq haqq\u0131nda \u00fcmumi olan, ham\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n bilin\u0259n fakt yaln\u0131z onun qula\u011f\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259smi\u015f r\u0259ssam olmas\u0131d\u0131r. Dahi insanlar\u0131n bu \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 adi insanlar\u0131n yadda\u015f\u0131nda qalmas\u0131, t\u0259bii ki, adam\u0131 m\u0259yus edir. Y\u0259qin ki, bu, b\u00fct\u00fcn yarad\u0131c\u0131 insanlar\u0131n b\u0259xtin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n hald\u0131r, onlar adi insanlar t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u201cd\u0259lilikl\u0259ri\u201d il\u0259 yadda qal\u0131blar. \u00a0Makiavellinin sinifl\u0259ndirm\u0259sind\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc qrupa daxil olan insanlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bu q\u0259d\u0259rinin bilinm\u0259si b\u0259s edib.\n<\/p>\n

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\n Van Qoqun h\u0259yat\u0131 indiy\u0259 kimi oxudu\u011fum yarad\u0131c\u0131 insanlar i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 \u0259n a\u011f\u0131r olanlardan biridir. Daim \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc axtar\u0131\u015fda olan, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ifad\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan Van Qoq, h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 g\u0259nclik d\u00f6vrl\u0259rind\u0259 r\u0259sm \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259ri satmaqla, m\u00fc\u0259llim olma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaqla, kils\u0259d\u0259 ruhani olub insanlara xidm\u0259t etm\u0259kl\u0259 ke\u00e7irdir. H\u0259yat\u0131n bu d\u00f6vrl\u0259rind\u0259 qarda\u015f\u0131na yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259ktublarda o, daima, \u201cyararl\u0131 olmaq, d\u00fcnyada bo\u015funa ya\u015famad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, ona veril\u0259n h\u0259yat\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 layiqinc\u0259 verm\u0259k\u201d \u00fcmidi il\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yaz\u0131r. Onu h\u0259min d\u00f6vrl\u0259rd\u0259 d\u0259rind\u0259n incid\u0259n dig\u0259r hadis\u0259 a\u015fiq oldu\u011fu qad\u0131n\u0131n onu r\u0259dd etm\u0259si idi. Qad\u0131n\u0131n onun b\u00fct\u00fcn c\u0259hdl\u0259rin\u0259 \u201cyox\u201d dem\u0259sini o, buzla m\u00fcqayis\u0259 edir, \u201cbuzlar\u0131n bir g\u00fcn m\u00fctl\u0259q \u0259riy\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259\u201d d\u0259rind\u0259n inan\u0131rd\u0131, amma \u00a0buzlar \u0259rimir ki, \u0259rimir.\n<\/p>\n

\n Van Qoqun h\u0259yat\u0131nda \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck hadis\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n dig\u0259ri onun kils\u0259 il\u0259 konflikt\u0259 gir\u0259r\u0259k, ayr\u0131lmas\u0131 olur. O, kils\u0259 xadimi kimi k\u00f6m\u00fcr karxanalar\u0131nda i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259n insanlara \u201cruhsal rahatl\u0131q b\u0259x\u015f etm\u0259k\u201d \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn onlar\u0131n qald\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0259raziy\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcr. Uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t bu insanlar\u0131 m\u00fc\u015fahid\u0259 ed\u0259n Van Qoq, f\u0259hl\u0259l\u0259rin \u201cd\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli \u0259zablar\u0131n\u0131n\u201d, onlar\u0131n daima \u201ck\u0259d\u0259rli g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin, yor\u011fun g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcl\u0259rinin\u201d \u015fahidi kimi d\u0259rin sars\u0131nt\u0131 ke\u00e7irdir. Bu insanlara Tanr\u0131 k\u0259lam\u0131 il\u0259 yard\u0131m ed\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yini anlayan Van Qoq onlar\u0131n yan\u0131nda yer alaraq, onlar\u0131 \u201cistismar ed\u0259n burjuaziya\u201d qrupu il\u0259 davaya qo\u015fulur.\n<\/p>\n

\n Kils\u0259nin bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259d\u0259 kapitalistl\u0259rin yan\u0131nda olmas\u0131, onun kils\u0259 il\u0259 olan son ba\u011flar\u0131n\u0131 da qopar\u0131r. M\u0259ktublarda yazmasa da, m\u0259lum olub ki, Van Qoq g\u00fcnd\u0259lik \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yini bu insanlarla b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, h\u0259tta son \u00e7arpay\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 da yata\u011f\u0131 olmayan f\u0259h\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n birin\u0259 verib.\n<\/p>\n

\n M\u00fcxt\u0259lif aral\u0131qlarla r\u0259sm sat\u0131lan qalareyalarda i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259n Van Qoq, insanlar\u0131n h\u0259qiqi d\u0259y\u0259ri olan r\u0259sml\u0259ri anlamamas\u0131ndan, r\u0259sm satan sat\u0131c\u0131lar\u0131n r\u0259smd\u0259n, r\u0259ssaml\u0131qdan ba\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xmamas\u0131ndan h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 gileyl\u0259nir. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc he\u00e7 yerd\u0259 tapa bilm\u0259y\u0259n Van Qoq, n\u0259hay\u0259t, r\u0259ssam olma\u011fa q\u0259rar verir. O, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck ehtiras\u0131n\u0131n arxas\u0131nca getm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n imtina edir.\n<\/p>\n

\n V\u0259 m\u0259hz bu andan ba\u015flayaraq onun h\u0259yat\u0131 m\u00fcdhi\u015f a\u011fr\u0131-ac\u0131larla dolub da\u015f\u0131r. Onun se\u00e7diyi yol, n\u0259 ail\u0259si, n\u0259 qohumlar\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n t\u0259qdir olunmur. \u0130lk ba\u015flarda, onlar bunu \u201cke\u00e7ici h\u0259v\u0259s\u201d hesab edirl\u0259r. Bel\u0259 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131, Van Qoqun son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 ciddi oldu\u011fu ayd\u0131nla\u015fanda is\u0259 ail\u0259si il\u0259 k\u0259skin m\u00fcbahis\u0259l\u0259r ya\u015fay\u0131r. O, atas\u0131 v\u0259 anas\u0131n\u0131n \u201conu he\u00e7 zaman ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yini\u201d, \u00e7\u00fcnki \u201conlar\u0131n h\u0259yata bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n onun \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n k\u0259skin f\u0259rql\u0259ndiyini\u201d qarda\u015f\u0131na yaz\u0131rd\u0131.\n<\/p>\n

\n R\u0259sml\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131qdan sonra Van Qoq yaln\u0131z qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n yard\u0131m\u0131 il\u0259 dolana bilir. O, \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn ax\u0131r\u0131na kimi qarda\u015f\u0131 Teonun yard\u0131m\u0131 il\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131r. Ona inanan yegan\u0259 ail\u0259 \u00fczv\u00fc Teo, qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n kiray\u0259 haqq\u0131n\u0131, g\u00fcnd\u0259lik qidalanmas\u0131n\u0131, r\u0259sm \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn laz\u0131m olan l\u0259vazimatlar\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259min etm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r. B\u00fct\u00fcn bu yard\u0131mlara baxmayaraq, Van Qoq daima pis qidalan\u0131r, \u0259lind\u0259 olan pullar\u0131n\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 daha \u00e7ox r\u0259sm \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn materiallara x\u0259rcl\u0259yir.\n<\/p>\n

\n M\u0259ktublarda \u0259n a\u011f\u0131r yerl\u0259rd\u0259n biri Van Qoqun insanlar\u0131n onun haqq\u0131nda avara\u00e7\u0131l\u0131qla m\u0259\u015f\u011ful oldu\u011fu fikri il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 narahat\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131d\u0131r.\u00a0 \u00c7evr\u0259sinin n\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u0259 laqeyd olma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan, zaman ke\u00e7dikc\u0259 bunu daha yax\u015f\u0131 bacaran Van Qoq qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n da bu fikirl\u0259ri b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fm\u0259sind\u0259n d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli narahatl\u0131q ke\u00e7irdir. Onu bu h\u0259yatda n\u0259y\u0259s\u0259 yararl\u0131 olmas\u0131 il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 manyakal bir fikir t\u0259qib edir. M\u0259ktublarda, onun \u015fidd\u0259tli \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc biruz\u0259 ver\u0259n r\u0259ssam olmaq ist\u0259yi il\u0259, d\u0259rin \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc hiss etdir\u0259n, h\u0259yatda yararl\u0131 olmaq narahat\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 aras\u0131nda sanki bir u\u00e7urumu hiss edirs\u0259n. Bu u\u00e7rumun yaranma s\u0259b\u0259bi onun arzulad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 r\u0259ssam ola bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yi, qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda qoydu\u011fu h\u0259d\u0259f\u0259 \u00e7atmayaca\u011f\u0131 qorxusu t\u0259qib edir.\n<\/p>\n

\n O qarda\u015f\u0131na yaz\u0131r: \u201cS\u0259n m\u0259nd\u0259 avara\u00e7\u0131lqdan ba\u015fqa bir \u015feyin d\u0259 var oldu\u011funu g\u00f6r\u0259 bils\u0259n, \u00a0buna \u00e7ox \u015fad olard\u0131m…\u201d\n<\/p>\n

\n \u201c\u018fks\u0259rriyy\u0259tin g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 m\u0259n kim\u0259m? S\u0131f\u0131r, he\u00e7 kim, xo\u015fag\u0259lm\u0259z adam, el\u0259 adam\u00a0 ki, o he\u00e7 bir zaman c\u0259miyy\u0259td\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 yer tapa bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k \u2013 he\u00e7l\u0259rd\u0259n he\u00e7i. Hesab ed\u0259k ki, bu bel\u0259dir. N\u0259 olar, m\u0259n zamanla bu he\u00e7in, axma\u011f\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 hans\u0131 x\u0259zin\u0259nin gizl\u0259ndiyini onlara g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259c\u0259m\u201d.\n<\/p>\n

\n \u201cM\u0259n n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r b\u0259db\u0259xt olsam da, q\u0259lbimin d\u0259rinliyind\u0259 sakitlik, h\u00fczr v\u0259 musiqiy\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259r harmoniya h\u00f6k\u00fcm s\u00fcr\u00fcr. \u018fn kas\u0131b, kirli yerl\u0259rd\u0259 r\u0259sml\u0259rim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u00fcjet g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m. Onlar m\u0259ni \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kir. Bu \u00e7\u0259kim g\u00fccl\u0259ndikc\u0259, m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yerd\u0259 qalan \u015feyl\u0259r \u00f6z \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259tin, mara\u011f\u0131n itirir\u0259k arxa plana ke\u00e7ir, m\u0259nim g\u00f6zl\u0259rim r\u0259sml\u0259ri daha ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131r\u201d.\n<\/p>\n

\n D\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fc v\u0259ziyy\u0259t onu haldan-hala salsa da, o, b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlara \u201cinsani h\u0259yat\u0131n ki\u00e7ik k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259ri\u201d deyib, daha ali m\u0259qs\u0259din\u0259 do\u011fru, y\u0259ni, r\u0259ssam olmaq, inc\u0259s\u0259n\u0259t \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259ri yaratmaq ist\u0259yind\u0259n b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk yap\u0131\u015f\u0131r.\n<\/p>\n

\n Van Qoqun \u0259traf\u0131ndan, y\u0259ni, ail\u0259sind\u0259n, dostlar\u0131ndan, qohumlar\u0131ndan, c\u0259miyy\u0259td\u0259n tam qopma an\u0131 is\u0259 onun \u201ck\u00fc\u00e7\u0259 qad\u0131n\u0131na\u201d yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u0259ldiyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn onunla birg\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131\u015fa ba\u015flamas\u0131 il\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131r. O, c\u0259miyy\u0259tin geri\u00e7i d\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259rini \u015fidd\u0259tl\u0259 t\u0259nqid edir, onlar\u0131 iki\u00fczl\u00fcl\u00fckd\u0259 ittiham edir, \u00f6z h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tinin daha ali oldu\u011funu qarda\u015f\u0131na isbat etm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r. M\u0259ktublarda qarda\u015f\u0131 Teonun bununla ba\u011fl\u0131 narahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131 hiss\u00a0 edilir. Amma Van Qoq h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n, h\u0259tta qarda\u015f\u0131ndan da imtina ed\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259yini, amma o qad\u0131n\u0131 yaln\u0131z buraxmayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 dilin\u0259 g\u0259tirir.\n<\/p>\n

\n Van Qoq \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn sonuna kimi, bir g\u00fcn qiym\u0259tl\u0259ndiril\u0259c\u0259yi il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 arzusunu daima \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131r. Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u201czaman\u0131n insan\u0131n\u0131n\u201d onun, onun kimi dig\u0259r yarad\u0131c\u0131 insalar\u0131n d\u0259y\u0259rini bilm\u0259m\u0259kd\u0259 g\u00fcnahland\u0131r\u0131r, tarix\u0259 ekskursiya ed\u0259r\u0259k dem\u0259k olar, b\u00fct\u00fcn yarad\u0131c\u0131 insanlar\u0131n eyni aqib\u0259tl\u0259 \u00fczl\u0259\u015fdiyini, y\u0259ni, zaman\u0131nda d\u0259y\u0259rinin verilm\u0259diyini v\u0259 bunun onun \u201cyegan\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259llisi\u201d oldu\u011funu qarda\u015f\u0131na yaz\u0131r.\n<\/p>\n

\n M\u0259ktublarda maraql\u0131 m\u0259qamlardan biri, Van Qoqun b\u0259ddi \u0259d\u0259biyyata, oxuma\u011fa olan m\u00fcnasib\u0259tidir. D\u00f6vr\u00fcn\u00fcn b\u0259ddi \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u0131n\u0131 y\u00fcks\u0259k d\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259ndir\u0259n Van Qoq, Emil Zolya, Onore de Balzak, Carlz Dikkens v\u0259 dig\u0259rl\u0259rini b\u00f6y\u00fck z\u00f6vql\u0259 oxudu\u011funu yaz\u0131r. O, kitab oxumaqla r\u0259ssaml\u0131qla m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olmaq aras\u0131nda parlell\u0259r apararaq, r\u0259ssamlar\u0131n m\u00fctl\u0259q kitab oxumal\u0131 oldu\u011funu, bunun onlar\u0131 r\u0259sm \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259rini daha da z\u0259nginl\u0259\u015fdir\u0259c\u0259yini yaz\u0131r. O, d\u00f6vr\u00fcn\u00fcn r\u0259ssamlar\u0131n\u0131n b\u0259dii \u0259d\u0259biyyat oxumamas\u0131n\u0131 b\u0259rk q\u0131nay\u0131r, onlar\u0131n yaln\u0131z r\u0259sm \u00e7\u0259km\u0259kl\u0259 ustala\u015faca\u011f\u0131na olan inanclar\u0131n\u0131 \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259 alt\u0131na al\u0131r.\n<\/p>\n

\n Van Qoqu daima narahat ed\u0259n dig\u0259r bir duy\u011fu, onun \u201cgec qald\u0131\u011f\u0131\u201d, buna g\u00f6r\u0259 daha \u00e7ox \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmal\u0131 oldu\u011fu hissidir. Bu hiss v\u0259 x\u0259st\u0259liyi il\u0259 onda yaranan g\u0259nc ya\u015fda \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259yi il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 \u00f6ng\u00f6rm\u0259si, onun \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn sonlar\u0131na do\u011fru \u00e7oxsayl\u0131 r\u0259sml\u0259r \u00e7\u0259km\u0259sin\u0259 t\u0259kan veririr. Van Qoqun h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n son d\u00f6vrl\u0259ri, daha \u00e7ox psixiatrik x\u0259st\u0259xanalarda ke\u00e7ir. O,\u00a0 x\u0259st\u0259xanada da r\u0259sm \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 davam edir. R\u0259sm \u00e7\u0259km\u0259kl\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt oldu\u011funu, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc onda tapd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yaz\u0131r.\n<\/p>\n

\n Van Qoq dem\u0259k olar ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn m\u0259ktublar\u0131nda \u201cbir g\u00fcn r\u0259sml\u0259rinin sat\u0131laca\u011f\u0131na\u201d, qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u201conu saxlamaq kimi a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fckd\u0259n qurtulaca\u011f\u0131na\u201d olan \u00fcmidini itirmir. Amma o b\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0259yat\u0131 boyu,\u00a0 \u201cQ\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcml\u00fckl\u0259r\u201d adl\u0131 c\u0259mi bir r\u0259sm \u0259s\u0259ri sata bilir. \u0130ki il sonra is\u0259 o, 1890-c\u0131 iyul ay\u0131n\u0131n 27-sind\u0259, a\u011f\u0131r depressiya hal\u0131nda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tapan\u00e7a il\u0259 vuraraq intihar edir.\n<\/p>\n

\n M\u0259ktublarla ba\u011fl\u0131 daha \u00e7ox yazmaq olar, amma onun oxunmas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259diyimd\u0259n burada yaz\u0131n\u0131 dayand\u0131r\u0131ram. H\u0259r \u015fey bir q\u0131ra\u011fa, bu m\u0259ktublar s\u00f6z\u00fcn h\u0259qiqi m\u0259nas\u0131nda \u0259d\u0259biyyat hadis\u0259sidir.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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